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f14crazy

To those of you that still do LJ

Jan 14, 2007 11:50

I would use my Myspace for this, but I'd also like to share this with the LJ audience ( Read more... )

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chickadilly87 January 14 2007, 22:39:28 UTC

I'm really sorry about how I spoke to you when we last talked. All you were trying to do was tell me the truth, which was what I wanted from you, and I reacted exactly the way you thought I would react, which is why you didn't tell me in the first place. I was just upset because all this time you had convinced me that you still loved me and you were hurting so bad after our breakup because of it, so I was concerned and worried and feeling guilty. When I heard that you didn't actually love me anymore and that you were happy with someone else while I was hurting for you, I felt betrayed. But I was not just talking out of anger when I told ou that I was concerned about your expectations from your new relationship. I am still worried about you and I think about you constantly. I wish I could talk to you and discuss things with you, but I'm still hurting too much. Even seeing that you wrote this (though what you wrote had no content that is directly upsetting to me) caused me anguish because I was hearing from you. I hope that in time I ( ... )

f14crazy January 15 2007, 00:35:14 UTC

It didnt come out well at all, a lot because I was driving while typing on a pocket pc.

I have been messed up, and still am. I wasn't all for my decision (not close to it), and memories don't evaporate.

I can understand why you were upset as much as you were.

I didn't want to post this on mine... chickadilly87 September 28 2007, 04:25:28 UTC

"you're not a bad person"

That comforted me so much and made me feel better than you could ever know... for a few minutes.

But then I realized that you don't know everything. You don't know all of the circumstances. This year (mostly the beginning) changed me. I did a lot of horrible things that I said I would never do and they've had a major effect. I'm disgusted with myself. I don't like what I've become. And what I did, and what I'm still doing, I can't shake and I can't get past.

But, thank you.