so i havent visited this place in a long time. ive noticed that i come back to this journal every time i leave it. my excuse is that i have been changing. although old feelings are still there, i still feel like i am different then how i was ( Read more... )

It’s such a strange paradox. I mean, while, technically, I’m closer to the end of my life than I’ve ever been, I actually feel more than ever that I have all the time in the world. When I was younger, there was a desperation, a desire for certainty, like there was an end to the path, and I had to get there. Creation seems to come out of ( Read more... )

it's time for me to grow up. i have hated myself for a good 6 months. it's time to change that.

i am more that excited to see joey and danielle saturday. I am getting hard earned money saturday afternoon and i will spend it all with joey and dani, FA SHO.

many times i often laughed at the shit we did. it was fun: gay bar with elisa, first time i met him was at the as cities burn show, great time. dani i met first at the mall, great time as

friday i am staying in new orleans, saturday i am going to mandeville. i miss joey. saturday morning i am going to work at a film set and help work with lighting and background work ( Read more... )

it's been ages since i have posted on here. so now that i have the time to be a normal kid, i wish to tell you how much i have fucked up lately.

i hate these friends i have
i want to be in love
drugs are really useless, but fun

i have lost all my real friends and i guess i deserve it.

cody died, fuck.

no one really knows me, no one knows anyone. i like two things: george orwell, and i don't know. i packed my bags last night. I want to move somewhere nice, preferably somewhere that smells fresh. i burped and smoke came out and i live without knowing my dog died. so currently i dont know my dog died of pneumonia. i ate funyons and smoked two ( Read more... )

i fucked up bad

i want a fucking Girlfriend