I like that writing is now considered a break in the day as opposed to a nap or staring up at the ceiling trying to navigate myself towards the meaning of life. Not that this type of writing means a good goddamn but it's better than nothing ( Read more... )

So BG acting has been going full force, recently. Taking every job possible, regardless of how last minute, how early, or how shitty. This past Tuesday's really took the cake as it was almost 4 hours of exteriors all of which required wearing a winter coat in 90 degree heat. Despite always having a drink in my hand and taking my jacket off between ( Read more... )

So Nicole is throwing her hat into the ring amidst the love life maelstrom, asking to be part of my upcoming weekend. She had been out of the picture the past weeks, bogged down with work, a stubborn cold, and surgery preparation but we've kept in touch over the Bookface for that period. Today she proposed a movie and sex bender while I tried to ( Read more... )

Things with Mary Lee are continuing to intensify, I don't know how else to put it or approach it. Either she is deeply manipulative and is hoping to lure me into a position of co-dependence and subservience as she continues to hunt for a more suitable mate or she misses me terribly. Part of her reasoning for her letting go of the dating part of our ( Read more... )

Amongst a jam-packed week of acting gigs last Thursday, shortly following a spirit animal vision quest, I had yet another seizure. Apparently it unfolded in the bathroom, judging from the mess and devastation in there, but I woke up in bed with a migraine and no sense of what had happened. This means one of a few things. One, I had a seizure in the ( Read more... )

Work continues to pile up, which is a good thing, but my attorneys seem completely disinterested in accessing the paperwork required for me to make substantial financial gains in my hearing this coming Thursday. It is absolutely fucking infuriating. Here's the situation, if I haven't explained it before, in the most succinct way possible: I need a ( Read more... )

I'm going full force into trying to build a bit of a financial nest egg before the end of the month. I put myself back on the active roster for Restaurant Associates, though they told me busy season has come to an end (which I was well aware of), and have been extremely diligent in applying for absolutely every single BG acting job that I can. I ( Read more... )

Well, it was inevitable but developed way sooner than I thought. Mary Lee gave me a call to arms, or call to vagina, yesterday around 6pm and like Batman I answered the call. As I was grabbing my things around my room I kept saying, "This is a bad idea Ryan, this is not a healthy choice, don't be stupid," but I felt secure enough with my emotions ( Read more... )

This is going to be an examination of something that happened a month or two ago but Nicole mentioned it the other day so the revisitation has motivated me. My ex, Kaylee, the relationship that was somehow the healthiest that I had ever been in, recently had her breasts removed. In an attempt to be "genderless" or perhaps in an attempt to go for ( Read more... )

If there's one thing I'm happy about during this whole ordeal over the past 6 or 7 months it's that it has gotten me writing again. Lindsey, who runs some spiritual type group on Facebook, a friend of over ten years suggested that after reading some of my comments regarding life changing "resets" that I should begin writing seriously and that I ( Read more... )