i always knew it was a defence mechanism, you saying that early on, "all my exes thought i didn't care, but it's just that i don't show it very well". bullshit. you just don't care ( Read more... )

last night while you slept like a baby i stayed awake for hours. this morning i told you it was because i couldn't sleep because of how many hours i'd had the night before - the truth was i was up crying because you have no idea how much that one little action has hurt me, completely wrecked my self-esteem and made me doubt everything i was happy ( Read more... )

her words make you feel beautiful,
why can't mine?

i want a life like amélie poulain. completely selfless, anonymously dedicating understated time and effort into creating something that will bring utter joy to those you know. i want to do something quirky. would you love me more if i cared like that? how do i connect with you?

i know i only really want this to continue because if we finish, you'll forget about me within days. i really want you to love me, really love me, i want my words to be the words that make you smile, what happened to us? why are you pushing me away?

i can't help but feel you don't want to make any memories with me.

what am i doing so wrong?