a year has passed
nothing's changed.

sometimes its a tidal wave.

today i'm starting .
becoming a nicer person.
and today ends
the trashtalk.

p.s. i have the worst timing.
maybe its fate?
i doubt it.
bad timing is bad timing.
i'm jinxed.
maybe for a reason?

"i go through guys every week, matt ( Read more... )

but you know i know when its a dream

and when i woke i wished i was still dreaming.

i was on a roll
maybe it was the drink or the smoke
or the combination
but i believed everything i said
i took it all as truth
i was fascinated

it is always the case that
when i drink
i text
the wrong people
and write them
unreadable things
i think phones should
be built with features
that prevent drunk
text/dialing.

i dreamt last night that you were fat
and old
and hairier.
i smiled.
maybe it wasn't you
afterall.
dreams are dumb

it doesn't take a lot
for me to get swept
up into a whirlwind
of anxiety panic
self doubt &
lowliness
i want to be
disassociated
from this ciyt