i am in a rut
rut rut rut r
ut rut rut ur
ruttt.
i'm not drunk. too tired.
a little bit of beer left over.
cotton mouth.
silence and pee are the most deaf
ening sensations.
i hate it.
i'm in a rut.
stuck.
i'm too tired.

up down up down up down. i'm somewhere in the middle again.

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when you're drunk, silence is loud.
and pee is neverending.

i started my day by drinking mimosas early in the morning and skipping school and riding my bike to the zoo with friends and looking at animals.

i feel funny about things today.

high low high low high low high low medium low low high

oh hoh i am watching days and i just want john black to whisper raspy sweet nothings into my ear.

my my my, procrastination ! it is monday evening and i have barely four pages of my 10 page or so paper done. this is due thursday. i feel so overwhelmed and disorganized. i suppose it could be worse. i am ready for this semester to be over. trig is a joke as the teacher had to add 10 pts to the last test because everyone else is failing with their ( Read more... )

you get these ideas in your head and you let them fester and somehow you trick yourself into believing that if they happen everything will be like you had hoped and you'll finally be satisfied.

i have too many ideas.