Today wasn't as terrible as imagined. I woke up, pouring myself a freshly made margarita and sitting down to enjoy the morning paper. The night before was unexpectedly amazing. I found myself socializing with those I thought to be long gone. We drank, mostly with distant laughter in the background. It felt like a "you were meant to" type of ( Read more... )

I miss the distant thunder of Summer storms and Spring rain ( Read more... )

Cigarette smoke fills the room and I cant see ( Read more... )

It has honestly been 157 weeks since my last journal entry. I might say its for the best considering the tragedy that has followed these dark days but i have let anyone down who cares to read this. I find myself wondering all the time about life and death and dipping into one another mixing paints to create my own masterpiece and here I am. I am ( Read more... )

Once upon a time during a starry starry night i took a man's life with a 6 inch knife. went looking for his wife and only found his children. now they're working on the farm begging forgiveness. my forgetfulness intentional no food for the bastards and if they complain a backhand goes to the bastards. fuck the world is what i say, and to the people ( Read more... )

Blowing back and forth losing petals in the wind. Watching them fall away and descend into the dark. My heart refuses to beat, my heart refuses to pump life through my veins. Coughing up the end and choking on the truth, once more I find myself losing ground. The dirt crumbles beneath my feet. The earth crumbles into space. A single petal still ( Read more... )

I know your game and I play it well ( Read more... )

Between the flicker of flashing lights. Blue and red shine so bright, reflecting off windows of houses near. The're approaching the door and I feel fear growing deep inside. Twist the dead-bolt and push weight against- this fear grows inside- twisting the dead-bolt and pushing weight against the door! Who, I wonder are they here for? Two sets of ( Read more... )

12:00- midnight - rambling ( Read more... )

From wrong to right while wavering decisions. Who knows where we will end up now? Two paths to travel but only one may be taken ( Read more... )