It's been raining now more than ever, to the point when stepping outside and finding that the rain has stopped almost brings peace within the chaos. I've always been a fan of the changing weather. Thunderstorms calmed the war waging inside me. Autumn would teach me more about religion than I ever thought I could ever understand. Summer days bring ( Read more... )

I feel mangled and twisted beyond repair. I look for hope in everything, as if some glipse will restore my faith. I'm losing a war I don't care to wage, yet I won't surrender. I suppose I am a fool, or foolish to say the least. Not only do I let down those around me I feel the danger dangling in the air like a energized cloud in preperation to ( Read more... )

The tone is shakey at best, with oil spluring out into our oceans like a volcano it's uncessary to comment on anything less plaguing this poor, doomed country. I, myself find my difficult to write due to the bewilderment I'm experiencing. I soon anticipate the pale horse riding from the horizion towards our Americanized homes with death on it's ( Read more... )

Lately I've found myself to be stagnant, without passion, and generally bored. What once drove me with pure emotion and happiness no longer seems to exist. I've recently come to terms with the fact that I am a dreamer. Big things are always in the works but never obtained and I feel as if something is always missing. This black hole sucks every ( Read more... )

In general I find myself turning towards sleep to suppress the darkened nature of my personality. As of late it has done nothing good for me. I have a hard time describing these images as nightmares due to the realism of what I experience. And it's not just one storyline going on like some childish nightmare.. I'm running covered in blood, fighting ( Read more... )

This year has been marked by tragedy. It seems in every direction there is an overwhelming sense of longing, as if something was missing. I've tried reasonably to come to terms with the deaths of so many loved ones, and now it's Christmas and it doesn't really feel like I've come to terms with anything. Strong drink keeps the demons at bay, but not ( Read more... )

These silver tiles lead me down a road of darkness and insecurity ( Read more... )

There was fear all around me. I was soaked in it. The words unraveling off his tongue gave sharp electrical strikes along my spine, raising my hairs to a pinpoint. "How could this be?" I wondered. "These are not normal people," I thought. "they're great people." I've had many dinners, outdoor fire and late night discussions with these civil people ( Read more... )

So.. I've felt it creep across my skin like ghosts up my spine. Christmas.. the hopeful American sensation noted for presents and holiday cheer. "What cheer?" I wondered. At any rate, we are doing as badly or even worse than before, yet we display these smiles like products at shopping markets and it makes me sick. I want to be the young soul who ( Read more... )

"Dear sweet rose wilting by the window ( Read more... )