It's strange that I have become the support for a few of my friends since this all happened. I talk to them and they still cry when they think about it or when they read the newspaper. But I feel no need to cry at all. For some strange reason it feels a million miles away. It hasn't even been a week and I have moved on and overcome it. Perhaps it's ( Read more... )

I think I've become numb. Going through such an extreme amount of emotions in only a matter of days is draining. Going through such emotions has left me with feeling nothing.
There was a memorial tonite and nobody bothered to tell me. Thanks a lot.

It seems that today has the potential to be better. Maybe it's because I finally got some much needed sleep last night. Or maybe it was the sun shining. Or maybe it's because I am listening to Britney and she somehow knows how to make me feel better. Or maybe it's just because I have to realize that life goes on. I must have the best group of ( Read more... )

Just when I think it has passed everything comes back. I think it's because I am alone. Work today was not too bad. Being with Megan helped. But now I am alone, and I have nothing to do except to think and remember. I have nothing to focus on except the one thing that I have tried my hardest to suppress, and with that comes the guilt. I wonder if I ( Read more... )

Suddenly I realize that just because I am here and it is over there , I am not immune to what is happening. I can't pretend that it can't affect me anymore. It already has. It still is ( Read more... )

I had just sat down at the computer and a crazy bird ran into the glass window, not just once but about 6 times in a row. I don't get it. And had this happened 6 years ago when I was first forced to watch The Birds, I would be curled up in a ball in my room crying and horrified. And now there is blood all over the window.

My father's 55th birthday was today. I bought him a pipe and some good tobacco. He had always joked around about having one and so I finally got him one. I was the only one out of my family to buy him a gift. I was the only one who acknowledged his birthday. My brother did not come home once today because I think he realized that it was my father's ( Read more... )

So when Adrien Brody won last night I almost cried. I have loved him since Angels in the Outfield, ok so not really. But definitely since Summer of Sam. I am seriously considering letting him become the future father of my children... if he's lucky. Ha ( Read more... )

Do not go see A View from the Top. Damn. What a waste of $7.50 and two hours of my life. I mean this is coming from a girl who would sacrifice her own life for that of Gwyneths, and I am telling you to not support this movie. Even the outtakes at the end sucked. Yet somehow I seemed to enjoy myself. Maybe it's because Jessica was there ( Read more... )

" The first casualty of war is innocence" I read that on the cover of Platoon. I just though it was interesting ( Read more... )