i love this journal.

nothing excites me anymore.

boys and girls can never be friends. why.

to be a better person.

HAHA.

but seriously, that is my resolution.

i cant wait until thanksgiving!! i can't describe why it's so comforting and simple to spend time w/ NEHS ppl. maybe it's cuz everyone grew up together that we've seen one another go through all the joy and ugly moments. no fronts, just this deep-rooted friendship ( Read more... )

these past few days have been ridiculous..way too much drama, too much emotional stress, i really don't remember what's been going on. my room is filthy, im sick, i haven't been eating or sleeping well at all (which prolly explains my illness), i haven't really gone to class, i don't do hwk, wtf is going on. well let's see, im no longer bitter. i ( Read more... )

im a terrible person

wait, am i really?

hrm, yes i am. just cuz someone wrongs me doesn't make it right for me to wrong them. im horrible.

even after ppl you care about leave, they're still alive all around you. sappy, isn't it? they live in you. and the reason you miss them is cuz they brought you joy and you gave them your love. it's beautiful.

sometimes, i really, really, really hate myself.

ok, i admit it. my weirdass behavior: giddiness, anger, sadness, depression, mood swings, crying fits, yada yada is cuz i miss him. he is special, one of a kind, someone i depended on, and one of my best friends at penn...and all of a sudden, he just disappears. and for some reason, i thought it'd always be different. 我还是这么天真。i mean, we lasted ( Read more... )