Am I doomed to "forever be trailer camp tornado bait white trash"? Is it my fate to wind up with a deadbeat who steals, mothering children that I'm only able to support on WIC and Welfare? Is it my fate to forever be just a coveted piece of ass? I don't want to be beautiful. I wish I had no breasts. I wish I was in no way desirable. Is this the way ( Read more... )

I'm REALLY lonely. An email from a professor cheered me up for a little while, but it sucks having NOONE around ( Read more... )

Betty died today... or practically died, and I managed to get her to a dealership to get a trade-in. Dad had me singing up to get a Nissan Sentra.. I didn't really like it all that much. Then, I turned around and saw a Nissan Versa and I fell in love. I immediately changed my mind. But still.. that doesn't take away the pain of losing Betty.. all ( Read more... )

My mom listens to me when I play the flute (or oboe).. My dad distracts himself any way he can.

This is all stuff I've probably said before. The dean asked me something, "Don't you want a normal relationship?" - I replied, "Dr. Brown is single and happy, I don't see the problem of that." I don't want a relationship. I cringe when people flirt with me, and I want to run away. Actually, in the case of tonight, I DID run away. I actually ran ( Read more... )

Rape Me. I had to listen to it last night at work, when I was in the Dishroom. The manager refused to change the station. I was SO close to telling him just why I had quit Dining Services before, how I'd had a breakdown in the pot room. I wouldn't even have to mention all the other times that I've been scared out of my mind. I still may do it. I' ( Read more... )

I want to get lost in a city. I want to sit in a cafe and have it start to rain, like in some movie. I want to read a book outside, maybe watch strangers walk by. Sirens aren't a big deal to me, as I live in the middle of a town. Part of me hopes that I like Europe so much that I won't come back. Lettia, you know I'll always love you. This is me ( Read more... )

I'm torn in between wanting to tell people what happened yesterday and wanting to keep it to myself and bottle it up inside me. I honestly appreciate the sympathy and empathy from Asuka and the women at the health center. I don't even want to write it down here. I can't stand to put it down in writing. Maybe I will eventually. I hope that my one ( Read more... )

I.. want to got to India, France, Germany, and Russia after I graduate.

So, I search for hours, days, for a coffee table. I find one that looks good. I don't really pay much attention to the measurements. I buy it. Note to self: PAY more attention! Pictures can be deceiving. *sigh* All I can do is wait and hope that it's not as tiny as I think it will be ( Read more... )