fuck all that...for the first time ever...I have realized what i have vereus what i had and the trouble it caused me...I love darrell..he is amazing, and the most perfect man if there ever was one. he makes life easy and makes being happy easy...for both of us, and for hte first time ever i fell like it will be like that always, that i will never ( Read more... )

ok kids...i was just irritated for the first time with Darrell...he was a pain in the ass but.,...he was a really good boy and apologized immediately. and it was just a silly little thing...and...yeah. call me soon kiddies. love you all, talk to you soon.

thats all.
nothing big...just was irritated

ahhhhhhhhh

more to come ....thats all i have to say for now!

so, the guy thats head over feet..is still head over feet, and we are a "couple". the really bad part is...is that no matter what i stiull have...evenm if they are really underlying..and hidden, and i know better...feelings for Moises..hes all i can think about in the end...is it really bad of me, am i horrible...? I really like darrell and ( Read more... )

Im ok..ive just been real busy and moving agian in a week is gonna be tough, Ive me t a guy, but im still really in love with mo, and thats really complicated, i mean..insanely...ive ben having a lot of fun with a lot of people...and just trying to get this to work out to the best way it should...without my heart getting smooshed up and stepped on ( Read more... )

um.....im having a weird time in life at the moment...and its really hard to balance a lot of things ...and im confused, and torn and a big kinda mess and i could possibly be screwing up bad...yeah...AND i have to move ALL my shit this week...and it sucks, and it hurts and im really sad and happy...AHHHHH for fucks sake this blows

Its been 8 weeks since we decided to go on a "break" and its been so topsy turvey ever since...being together not being togethre crying arguing and then crying and just plain hurting...i know there are so many of my friends who love me and just want me to forget this person, but they have to realize that while I want to forget all the bad and have ( Read more... )

im moving out....and its hard to do. or will i suppose be hard soon when it occurs...but the decision to do so is also hard. and um yeah. other stuff blah blah blah...bye

ok so i dont get it...I spent THREE FUCKING YEARS WANTING TO GO OUT TO THE CITY AND GO TO THE BARS AND CLUBS THREE FUCKING YEARS....and in 2 weeks he's fucking mister club hopper in new haven...that shit is just one step and one sign that its fucking over...and he cant even really let me go.."im his, my boobies are his, and apparently i have no ( Read more... )

one day at a time...its so unclear, i just hare this limbo, its not a fun game despite the connotation associated with the actual game of limbo. I just dont know how low i can go i guess...part of me is being self destructive and saying and doing all of the wrong things to push push push...and the other part of me wants top be strong and hope that ( Read more... )