Yesterday was the one year anniversary of the day i lost my daughter. Oddly, I'm okay. We did everything we could to sleep through 3:10am. We went to a little place we love for breakfast called "Grandma's Kitchen," we shopped, and we exchanged our Yule/Christmas gifts, to keep our spirits up. It was a good, quiet day. We've survived a year. We both ( Read more... )

With all that has happened i have been licing off a diet of the 3 basic comfort foods... chocolate, fried, and Booze. And thusly have added a 20lb weight to the frame i had at the wedding. this of course, does not assist with the other issues I've been fighting off. I miss my favorite jeans... and I miss feeling as though i look good. I have enough ( Read more... )

you know I'm tired. You know things are tough. You know I'm still wearing my fighting face ( Read more... )

Eric bought me a stuffed Dragon for V day. It comes with name rights to a star, an actual, celestial, star. We will be naming it Eowyn.

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Grief in an interesting thing. It can cause the strongest walls to crumble, the weakest walls to be built, cities to stand on end, and the greatest acts of kindness. It can bring people together or it can pull people apart. It may slay lions or save butterflies. It can turn warriors into children and children into warriors. It may overcome you, ( Read more... )

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so tired. Its been.... an exciting week. Eowyn is here... and beautiful. I am here... and tired... am hoping that they let me go home tonight. its all depending on my blood pressure. I have been here for a week now. I have gone through over 20-30 needles, TONS of pain killers, I am covered in bruises, I have gained 50lbs and lost 20 now, I have ( Read more... )

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alright folks, I have a few evenings open coming up, any takers?