I honestly don't know what to say... I've stopped crying as much, but it seems like its paper thin, and the littlest things will remind me of her and shatter me into pieces. I keep thinking that I'll wake up and she'll be next to me, but I keep waking to the same nightmare. I've never felt quite so broken and empty as I do now, like there is this ( Read more... )

Building myself of steel, learning to hold it in and shut it down. To smile and move on, ignoring the nagging at the back of my mind, the sorrows and bitterness that shadow my movements. I rant and rail but never let it all go, never dwell for long before placing it deep inside, sealing it up, and locking it with a key that I even hide from myself ( Read more... )

We've officially finished moving to the new place... all that is left is a lot of unpacking... Unless something crazy happens though, this will be the last move until we finish with school. So far so good, its nice and it works.

I had a completely wonderful day today ( Read more... )

That's all I seemed to do today... and I still didn't get everything done... and that was staying 40 minutes extra ( Read more... )

Back to work tomorrow after my break... bright and early... i'm not feeling 6am right now... what I am ready for is for it to hurry up and be Friday already... I'm really hoping we can see the house Saturday so that we know what we're doing... Down to less then 2 weeks til classes now, and I want to have this resolved before then... For this house ( Read more... )

Crossing my fingers and trying not to get my hopes up too high... I had been emailing an alumni from the college who was looking to rent out her house to 2-3 students starting this semester. Seems she just bought a house out of town with her fiance. She was going to give us one of the rooms for $300 and get another student for the other room for $ ( Read more... )

It's turning into one of those "well fuck me" days... first, woke up and got told that they hadn't paid the water bill... for a few times now... so $189 to turn the water back on... and I really need a freaking shower ( Read more... )

School starts soon... and I'm looking forward to that... All art classes this semester... Drawing, Printmaking, Photography, and Art History European. Get to go out and get a nice camera... thinking about the Nikon Coolpix P100... www.nikonusa.com/Find-Your-Nikon/Product/Digital-Camera/26212/COOLPIX-P100.html
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Went out with Fern the other day... I ( Read more... )

Its been a little crazy since I got back from vacation... work and home... so I guess I'll go over as much as I can ( Read more... )