i am angry. ridiculously angry ( Read more... )

i am terrified of happiness. that's the reason for this nervous clench in my heart. i know this ( Read more... )

more and more every day i am realizing that i am living a dream that i do not necessarily want ( Read more... )

ok - look.... i have no idea what i'm doing. no idea what i'm getting into. but that's the thing right... supposed to stop judging before i even know the possibilities. stopping the predetermination before anything even begins ( Read more... )

here's the thing about passion: you can't just leave it behind ( Read more... )

the client is tilting at windmills.

*sigh*

i do not have time for this.

well, last night was the first nightmare night since i started the meds ( Read more... )

my dreams are always vivid. always feel real.. but with the changes to my body chemistry from the meds they're different now. i can feel them changing. i can feel them standing out and amazing me ( Read more... )

in your head sometimes you see things you don't want to see. it's not just in the dreams anymore. it's a moment where i sit quietly and i look around and suddenly it all flashes destruction. one of those moments of movies where wreckage and carnage are all around, the smoke and the soot carried from hundreds of miles around all whirling devils ( Read more... )

i always find myself coming back to gnarls barkley when i'm worried about my mind. i don't know why. but i do. maybe it's because there seems to be something so comforting about their lasseiz fair attitude related to life. saying hey... we've been there... but waht construct of society says that it means i'm different, weird... without cause? ( Read more... )