i've never felt less neurotypical than i have since i started working again.

[faeriemaiden]

I mean, I've nearly always known: Jo's brain does not work like the standard brain, for good or for ill (a heavy dose of both really). But I thought I had it mostly under control, and I thought it was mostly None Of My Interests Are Entirely Normal and I Am An Introvert And Need To Recharge and Sometimes My Brain Turns Inside-Out And Everything Is

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[frozen_in_amber]

Maybe you aren't picking up sarcasm because you are focused solely on doing your work?

lfkhmf;klpklh I'm sorry, doll. I can definitely see where you are coming from with the talking and working at the same time dilemma. It's grating to try following a conversation thread while you are also focusing on a task.

[faeriemaiden]

HUMANS ARE WEIRD; I WANNA BE A CAT NOW

(I came home exhausted from work the other day and my cat was on my bed, also exhausted, from his long, long day of lying around doing nothing. POOR DARLING.)

♥!

[claireobscure]

Ah, darling! ♥ It is good to see you around the livejournal scene, I do follow along with your tumblr (as you know!) but it moves so quickly sometimes that it is hard to keep up with everything.

I am sorry your brain is in such a strange place. Rest assured that it is not just you; when I am at work (and my work doesn't even generally involve anything that I concentrate on that much!) I am - I'm sure - known as That Daft Girl. :\ I like being helpful and cheerful and I do my very best to smile at everyone and exchange a few words but beyond that I am terrifically bad at conversing. So, *hugs* and sympathy for that.

It is possible that you're just over-concentrated on what you're doing, and that's not really a bad thing, necessarily, except that it makes you uncomfortable. When you go to the doctor's I would mention that.

Many many hugs for you, dear; I know you feel as though you are not doing as well as you'd like, but you really ARE doing well. ♥

[tobie_rosemary]

I can work and talk at the same time, but my husband most definitely cannot. I am learning never to try and tell him things when he is, say, chopping garlic. :)

But I can definitely relate to having the reputation of being the silent one at work, and having people always *talk* about you being the silent one, perhaps even joke about it. I'm not sure why people do it, but it's not fun. Anyway, this job sounds like it is for you what my first job was for me, so you have my sympathy!

[aohdwyn]

I'm totally the same way. There are certain tasks I can do on auto-pilot, so I can carry a conversation, but for other things, I need to concentrate. Otherwise I will send dough flying off the sheeter, or cut things the wrong size, or whatever. Luckily I work overnight so it's usually just me and occasionally one other person, so working in solitude is an option for me. But when the other shifts are coming and going and the kitchen is chaotic it becomes very difficult for me to function

[barefoottomboy]

I went through a phase at work a little while back where it felt like I was getting stupider and stupider, so I think sometimes that can just happen. And it does pass.

But also, working + talking can be really hard! I reckon if you say "hi everyone" when you come in, and respond to obvious & important questions, that it shouldn't matter if you do or don't chatter and gossip. Maybe you could mention that you have to concentrate so you don't screw up? Because then they might tease you about that, but at least you've given them a Socially Valid reason for not wanting to chat all the time?

*hugs*