It seems like everytime he and i get into an arrgument lately i could be very calm about things no matter what the subject is and he could just out of now where start yelling at me. He says its because that's just what he does when he gets mad. Now i do that too but some how i can control the volume of my voice and my temper unless i just can't ( Read more... )

Well today was an extreamly boring day. I didn't really do much just help my mom pack her shit so she can move to bum fuck texas. I'm glad its not me moving out there too. I seriously i doubt i could handle living in place where the closest fast food place is a whole 30 min drive away. Not to mention that the biggest things to do there is become a ( Read more... )

So today started out like any other day sucky.... mainly because i woke up sick and on top of that brandon and i got into it over something completely stupid. My logic is that it will just blow over and he'll forget about it and in time so will i. Well i was surprised at 11:00p.m. when i got a call from him telling me that he's off of work and he ( Read more... )

I'm so sad and no one is around to notice that. EVERYTHING is getting too me. I'm stuck here staring at these four walls day after day and its pretty much all my fault. I can't even call Brandon because he's working odd hours and i don't want to bother him. I feel like my whole world is just upside down and slowly trying to get back to being right ( Read more... )

why do i keep putting myself through all of this shit? i keep talking to that bitch like somehow its going to make me feel so much better because i know the truth. Well it only makes things worse. I hate her more and more each time i talk to her. I guess its because she always says "oh its not ment too hurt you" or "oh i'm not gloating about it" ( Read more... )

So here i am attempting yet another try at this whole journal thing. Let's just say the other one didn't work out too well. Now on to the juicy stuff.... Right now my life is complete shit. What i thought was true turns out to not be at all. The one person who is telling me the "truth" is a fuckin' bitch. She was too busy telling him that i'm a ( Read more... )