all i have to say is my heart and soul goes out to sarah and her family. i'm praying for you. and i'll do anything for you. much love.

i believe this to be my last entry. because i have realized that everything i have to say is ridiculous and pathetic and its much healthier to shut my mouth.

i'm so fucking scared. i'm gonna have to get that fricken surgery. yeah you know, the one where they screw a titanium and stainless steel rod into my spine. where i'll have to be in bed for like a month and in the hospital for at least a week. yeah that one. where i'll forever have a huge scar along my fucking spine. yeah. that one. the one where i ( Read more... )

i'm gettin tired.... so tired.... of everything. i need to stop being so fuckin emo. oh well. i miss my friends. i havent seen em in a long while. i just ache so much right now. but thats okay. cuz it'll only get better. right? well. probably not. but for now. i'll just keep telling myself that, it gives me a reason to keep going. i'm out. talk to ( Read more... )

Life is a gift. and i fully intend to use every second of it from now on. i'm overwhelmingly happy right now. i got a great job. great friends. a great bf. and great friends. and. i think. that everythings gonna be alright. and i thin i know now. i'm really gonna get outa here. and i'll make somethin of myself. who knows maybe i really will be a ( Read more... )

inside my shell i wait and bleed.

I got back from band camp. Besides the fucking terrible pain and perpetual tiredness i felt it was pretty fun. I made some new friends and a cute sophomore from kansas. So i'm definitely a vegitarian now. i swear to god. i never want to eat meat again. i had been eating meat at camp because thats pretty much all there was. so then on thursday we ( Read more... )

i'm really frustrated right now. i mean. everything about my life right now is completely wrong. i cant trust one of my friends cuz she is constantly lieing to me and not telling me anything (i dont even think shes aware that i KNOW shes lying). I dont have a best friend and everybody else does. and maybe i'm just tired of everything.... i feel ( Read more... )

i just realized i havent put anything in this thing about corey even though hes really the only thing on my mind. Corey, my good friend, i known him for... god i dont know, it seems like forever. but thats not the point. i love this kid dearly. and he got in a car accident. He was changing the radio station. swerved. and the car flipped five ( Read more... )

first of all where the crap is everybody tonight?? i dunno... i dont know how to get my voicemail livia. you left me one. but i dont know what the crap it says ( Read more... )

i had massive fun last night ladies! nice shirt!