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Depression, citalopram
I feel sick. I have been vomiting on and off for 3 days now. I feel constantly nauseous. For weeks nothing I have eaten has felt nourishing. I don't know what to do. I feel sick if I don't eat. I feel sick if I eat. Fruit and vegetables seems to generate a sharp acidic pain in my stomach. This is all the result of citalopram. I no longer feel in ( Read more... ) -
Things eaten today
Posting my food, in the hopes it will actually make me take stock and control what I eat.
morning
3 cups of tea 1 sugar in each
Lunch
crayfish and avocado salad, hand made crisps and coca cola
Afternoon
Hot chocolate, muffin
4 cups of tea, sugar in each
Dinner
chicken fillet burger (KFC)
glass of wine
club biscuit
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I haven't posted in a long time.
I don't really have anything to say that isn't already being amply covered by a thousand other depression-ridden individuals. There is nothing unique about my experience of this feeling. It isn't going away. I have never felt happy, as a youth I kept depression at bay by telling myself that by the time I had reached, 16,17,18, 21 I would have made ( Read more... ) -
Anxious
I feel anxious and sick. I can't imagine getting my life back. I feel sort of spat out by the system. I can't imagine how to get my life back on track. Throughout my childhood I always knew exactly what I wanted to do. Now that it counts, now that I have passed the point in the system when I should be making it happen, I haven't got a clue. I used ( Read more... ) -
Prozac
Today I am feeling slightly better. The Prozac is working. Though I am still unsure whether, philosophically, I ought to be taking it. It has silenced not only feelings, but also some thoughts. Thougts I ought to be thinking. Punishment I ougt to be giving myself. The Prozac seems to have been effective in stopping the highs too though. I can't ( Read more... ) -
First post
I have been nervous about writing in my livejournal. I half want to write personal things that I'd never tell anyone, and half am worried about whether I'd succeed in protecting my identity if I painted a complete picture of myself. So, if anyone finds this journal who actually knows me, I'd like them to not continue reading it, and to not tell ( Read more... ) -
Introduction to my livejournal
I am 21, female, and living in the UK. My livejournal is supposed to be about writing and critiquing the writing, but will probably descend into general rants about life in the rather arrogant assumption that anyone at all cares.
About me
I am an economically right-wing libertarian. I am highly strung and pretentious. I am narrow-minded, but in ( Read more... )