my fuckin best fuckin friend...my fuckin "bro" is ditchin me for his fuckin new gf...i still dont fuckin know ( Read more... )

what the fuck...this is bullshit...why the fuck am i so nice to him.... tonight i wanted to fuckin waste him and i couldve..he was all fuckin apologetic and sayin shit like "no bad blood" and "its all good" but really i am developin some rather nasty blood and and it is not all good ( Read more... )

so i am countin down the hours til shelby gets here...only about 3 and a half to go!!!!

i have found that i am in a surprisngly foul sate of mind..i am becoming agitated at things i usually tolerate...i did find my cell phone and i talked to shelby..which put me a little at ease...but i think it might be due to the fact that this was a shit weekend..and i feel like a shit hawk swooped down on me with shit talons ( Read more... )

god fuckin dammit all to fuckin hell i fuckin missed her calll and i havebt talked to her in two fuckin days and FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel like a stupid piece of shit god fuck AAAHHHHHHH

oh yeh i forgot to mention that my cellphone has disappeared off the face of the earth and i now have lost everyones fucking number.....what the hell

well tonight was fucked.... i went to a party and actually drank...and all fuckin hell broke loose...i was not the one breaking the hell loose..but everyone wanted to fight each other...i mean donald had a dispute with jmac and got kicked out...shae left everyone thought they were tough...syrup wound up everywhere...the apartment got trashed....i ( Read more... )

well tonight was fucked.... i went to a party and actually drank...and all fuckin hell broke loose...i was not the one breaking the hell loose..but everyone wanted to fight each other...i mean donald had a dispute with jmac and got kicked out...shae left everyone thought they were tough...syrup wound up everywhere...the apartment got trashed....i ( Read more... )

she is gone for 12 days...sleeping alone sucks...
BUT i hope she has a lot of fun and im happy for her cuz its an awesome damn experience.....
so i will simply say i love and miss her <3

a demo tomorrow... super pumped...
counting down the days til shelby's trip/ i lose my mind because i have no idea what to do with myself for 2 weeks...
off to bed