Today as I was walking around town, for the first time in a while I asked myself what I am doing here? Why am I in Henniker? I suppose the answer is that I have grown comfortable here. I am used to it, it is a known to me. I know what I can expect. There are no surprises. But maybe that has always been my problem in life. I always feel ( Read more... )

When I was in middle school I earned the name "no fun dunn" when I wouldn't let some friends on my dunk fisher price basketball hoop. I was always a shy, conservative and socially awkward kid so the name stuck through high school. When I went to college I did the best I could to forget about my past and become a new person. I lost weight, got ( Read more... )

This time of year always brings back the happiest and fondest memories from my past. Its been three years since I have even seen or had a conversation with the girl I loved more then any other person in my life. My feelings were one sided and even though you knew my interest, I don't think I ever expressed how much you really meant to me or how I ( Read more... )

I sit here on this jagged rock on this cool summers evening. The roar of river rapids in the distance seems to almost completely drown out all sound around me. However from where i am sitting the river is calm as its smooth mirror-like surface reflects the scenery around me. A dreamy sunset illuminates the skyline tonight as swirls of orange and ( Read more... )

random flashbacks. scattered thoughts. both contribute to this sleepless night. it seems lately all i want is something i can never have. is this not always the case. each and everyone of us all strive for something whatever it may be. It is something we fantasize and think about all the time. some may call it a dream, or a goal, where as to ( Read more... )

If you have not realized yet, i pose many questions with few answers. Perhaps it is because my questions have no real answers. Or maybe it is because I feel that my own personal thought process may corrupt my thinking and I will provide myself with an answer that I want to hear. Moreover I know that any answer i come up with for these radical ( Read more... )

Earlier today I was at Corey’s soccer game and during half time I watched a couple kids run around and make asses of themselves. That is one thing about little kids, they have no sense of self image or self consciousnesses yet, and more simply put just dont care. Why do we loose this attitude as we grow older? Would we all be less stressed if ( Read more... )

its a quite and calm night tonight. no clear reason as to why i cannot sleep, but yet here i lay staring at the ceiling. the room is filled with the faint light provided by the blue Christmas lights which surround my closet and window. a nice ambiance which adequately suits my mood. there is a firefly seemingly aimlessly making its way around my ( Read more... )

Sitting here in this new uncomfortable room, the clutter of boxes seem to blanket the floor. A reminder that yet another semester has come and passed. The sound of rain falling outside is almost completely drowned out by dashboard confessional playing on my stereo. I sit back in my chair and look out the window. I begin to think where I was at this ( Read more... )

There is a gentle breeze fluttering its way through the leaves tonight, as i sit here on this rock i look up at the sky, it is beautiful with its countless scattered clouds all seemingly which have an ora surrounding them as they radiate the moons heavenly glare. The moon itself is only half lit up, but still with enough output to light up the ( Read more... )