i'm going to attempt and make a list of things i will miss (just in number order no correlation to which i will miss most ( Read more... )

for some reason something is really wrong with me. i'm exhausted all day long. plus i don't eat much. not that i'm losing weight. not to say i want to lose weight. but i still don't feel comfortable being me. i don't mind being alone, but i'm not getting anywhere. i was thinking oh i'm by myself i can finally think and relax. yeah no. i have been ( Read more... )

i think it's one of those girl things. i just feel down on myself. i don't want anyone to think i need special attention, because that is not the case. there are just somethings i want to handle by myself. if things were really that bad, i would go and seek help from somewhere. i just need to figure out who i am and how i can be myself without and ( Read more... )

i don't understand what's wrong with me. something just doesn't seem right. it's like i'm not good enough anymore. my self esteem is low. i don't feel wanted from anyone. i just want to scream until i burst into tears. writing like this doesn't help. nothing i try and do seems to work. i'm scared, that's for sure. nothing seems fullfilling. i feel ( Read more... )

sometimes i love my cat and other times...well i rather she be eaten. i get a lovely wake up call at 6:30 in the morning from my mother screaming the god damn cat has been keeping me up for the past half an hour. well that sucks. don't come crying to me about. why do you think i closed my door? she had been keeping me up all god damn night. welcome ( Read more... )

it sucks when you find a guy you really like and well it doesn't turn out the way you think it would. i liked this one guy throughout high school. no lie. something about him is just mysterious that i'm intrigued by just his presence. however, WAS very shy. not so much anymore ( Read more... )

okay wishing i was a fairy and all, damn i wish i had a potion yesterday. i was really sick. i even had to call in work and tell them yeah no i'm not coming. i didn't eat or drink yesterday at all. so that means i should way frickin light now. HA. i hate it when i get sick cause it seems never ending. the only good part of yesterday was yelling at ( Read more... )

you know it takes a lot to hurt someone, but it doesn't take a lot to fix. i'm glad that my best friend is herself again. i get upset when i'm not part of something i should be or i think i should be. i always wanted a sister. now i have two. no make that three. one, maria, two, melissa, and three, ashley (who will be my sister in law in like two ( Read more... )

not very often do i say i'm hurt. unlike most people i'm usually very strong when it comes to emotional things. but man am i hurt. not just a little bit but severly. i broke down crying because it just seems everything is going so wrong. i thought i had a friend. and it turns out i don't even have that. i just can't believe what has been done. i ( Read more... )

what more could i say to describe the hurt i have right now. i'm angered. i'm pissed. i'm pretty much anything you can find under in the thesaurus as angry. i can't believe people! people are such hyprocrits.(what ever spelling i do wrong, i don't even give a flying shit at this point). ugh ( Read more... )