you know i finally thought i found a group of friends i could always be around. HA! i was wrong. there is no group anymore. the world i thought existed between us has fallen. i've for once have given up hope. so many riffs have occured and friendships torn that i can't pick up the pieces. i'm not helping this time. no i'm just going to keep going ( Read more... )

no matter what comes my way, i always seem to pull through. it may not be on top, but i always manage to survive. why is that? maybe because of the sacrifices i've made. i don't like those sacrifices. most of them are not by choice either. i'm saddened by what i have read, seen, and experienced. i feel no remorse for myself but for the people ( Read more... )

to understand where you're at today, you need to understand your past. one significant event changed my course ( Read more... )

i don't know if it's a good thing or not but i'm at peace right now. i'm just sick of the drama and stupid shit. it's getting old REAL fast. but it's the things you can't change. so that means you either deal with it or fuck it. i don't care if this offends anyone i feel like expressing my feelings as they stand. for so long it's "don't say that" ( Read more... )

yeah it's been a rough but exciting couple of days. on thursday and friday i went to oreintation for college. met some new and interesting people. a lot of boys from long island. so anyways, i let loose and really got into that college experience ( Read more... )

it seems that sometimes there comes a time where a girl like me realizes that no matter what you want out of a guy sometimes, you're not going to get what you expected. i ask for so little yet when i want something in seems like i get "shafted" so to speak. This does not just relate to boys but to friends too. Some times a friend may not even ( Read more... )

freedom is great isn't it? sometimes it seems like our country is out of whack but really USA is not that bad to live in. Your society and culture may be more of an issue but we're doing pretty good for ourselves. sometimes life can be a bit demanding but it's nothing a person can't handle. it does make me angry though when you see people in the ( Read more... )

it's been exhausting these past couple of days. graduation party. calling hours. i've about had it with my summer. bring on college. speaking of college, i have to go for my oreintation this week. i'm not looking forward to spending the night with a complete stranger, but then again, it is a new experience ( Read more... )

my god! i never realized how exhausting it is to hug like five million people and recieve so much money is so little time. cha ching! lol. it was nice to reconnect with some of my family that i haven't seen since my father passed away. it was a little strange ( Read more... )

Well in the world of human beings we have this event called a graduation party. This party serves the purpose of hitting everyone up for cash without putting a gun to them. I rather just do that. no i'm kidding. It's a little exciting to be finally having my own party. It's also a little nerve racking when i have to be up at the crach of frickin ( Read more... )