i...alyssa miller...am a college drop out

i'm starting to think that the only person excited that i'm coming home...is my mom

boy i'm lame

so i guess instead of being super emo...maybe the crazy start to my new year was exactly what i needed. so everything has been decided, the packing has been done, we're starting to finally get all of our shit together...and we leave for CT on the 15th, or maybe 16th...we'll have to see. i'm getting excited, the hard part, telling my dad and my ( Read more... )

so the ground is falling out beneath me...my head hurts and my stomach hurts and i'm so unbelievbly stressed out. a week ago everything was different...shit, yesterday everything was different. i just want to go to sleep and wake up next month...hopefully by then my life will make sense again. until then...locking myself in the bathroom and ( Read more... )

i can't believe it's less than a week til christmas. i have to go to the post office today to express mail the package that has my family's presents in it. i feel bad, cause i didn't get like half the stuff that i usually would get...i guess that comes with being poor. ugh, jose's job has been so slow the past couple weeks. i'm getting scared ( Read more... )

i've pretty much made my decision that i'm not going to stay at SNC past this school year...I sort of wish I'd decided it earlier so I don't even have to stay for another semester...but who knows, maybe it'll be good for me. I've basically decided that I'm going to try and transfer into Eastern and move back to CT. Eastern is one of only like 5 ( Read more... )

i can't believe that in two days and one hour my airplane will be landing in Hartford, CT. i've come so accustomed to this place, to this life. I love the fresh air, and the gorgeous lake, and the "When Flashing Snow Tires or Chains Required" signs, and the bears!!! god how i love those silly bears, and getting to walk "over the river and through ( Read more... )

so tonight, being a friday night, should be fun filled and party filled, and since i'm in college the common thing would be to have a night that's alcohol filled...but alas...i'm doing chores and running errands. jose had the past two nights off but he has work tonight from midnight til 830 and while he's resting up for work i have to wash his ( Read more... )

i'm an emo mother fucker who cries a lot....

....sometimes i just feel like stating the obvious

....when life seems to fall apart and slip away and lyssa does stupid shit and loses important things....how the fuck is anyone supposed to do a Calc take home test and study for a Stats test....

i wish i could kick my own ass...i feel so tired lately...and i suck at doing my school work. i need someone to kick my ass =(