fresh start?

yes, please.

I'm so sorry that part of me really wants to hurt you.

it makes no sense.

all he can do is be good... and thats not enough for me.

I feel awful. everything is making me cry.

I miss some of you so very, very much.

I am a  weirdo. I am constantly in a state of change. In some ways I dig it... on the other hand, I kind of wish I could stay satisfied with anything. These times exhaust me.

Hannah is coming home this weekend. I am really excited. I haven't seen her since she left in the beginning of august.

I kind of feel like ( Read more... )

ahhhh. i saw disney on ice tonight.

i was so excited to not be working/schooling/sitting on my ass.

YAY LIFE.

it was magical by the wayyyyyy.

busy bee.

I'm insane, I'm pretty sure of it.

Let myself be happy?

or is this reasonable?

who knows.

I want more.

They’re picturesque, these feelings.
You couldn’t paint it.
I’d argue you couldn’t even feel it.
And I’d like to think I could tell you,
but I can’t even form sentences anymore.
I just want to lay my head on the cold tile of the kitchen floor,
and cry into the cracks, filling them like canals.
And I want to set sail.
Sail away.

I feel incredibly alone, all the time. 
and I know this isn't such a unique feeling, 
but I don't think I have ever felt quite this way.
By no means am I looking for any sympathy...
I really just felt it necessary to write this down. 
I can't stop wanting to cry, I can't think straight. 
I have just been sitting at home for the most part. 
and it hasn't ( Read more... )

jeez. it's september and I haven't updated since april.
basically life is good.
school starts soon.
new parts of life start up soon.
it's really exciting.
i'm loved.
and it's wonderful.
i'm looking forward to changes.
and for now...thats just about it.

this break has been really nice.
but i'm kind of excited that it's almost over.
not cause i want break to be done...
but cause it's almost saturday...
haha i'm lame.