my life, my life, my life ( Read more... )

 sometimes,
 after midnight,
 I forget how happy I am
I lose track of the love I am filled with
the smiles I give are bargained away
my vocabulary turns dark and weak
and I sit and wonder what I've done wrong

for a few hours, this becomes the extent of my existence.

 I hardly right here... unfortunately, I suppose.

things are continuosly looking up and I am thankful. 
otherwise, I guess there's not much for me to say.

tomorrow another year of my life starts. I think this year is no longer going to be dedicated to mending but rather to bettering.

on friday at camp, I noticed a big wet spot on one of my kid's chairs during lunch. she is of the age group that we have the most problem with pants wetting so I walked up to her...

"Clara, did you have an accident?"

She looks down at the chair and back at me. She sighs.

"Yeah, "

on the table sat an empty applesauce cup.

"...with my applesauce."

I feel incredibly out of control right now ( Read more... )

ohhhhh man. it's been like two monthes. wowza!

hmmm... so whats been going on?

uhh. good question! I am just really happy. for the most part.

aaron is a lovely, lovely boy. I am spending time with my friends.

life is looking beautiful. the weather is getting promising.

mmm it's wonderful.

I think I am going snowboarding for the first time next week ( Read more... )

I am so excited about life right now. 
I have been so stressed out about having NOTHING to do (which sounds ridiculous, I KNOW). 
and now I am stressed about starting school again, doing well at that and getting a job...
but it's okay. I do so much better when I keep fairly busy.

in other news, I don't know how many of you know this (or caught the ( Read more... )

oh man... another year.

I am excited.

I am finally home from tennesse! 
I don't know that any of you knew I was there, but I was. haha. 
and now I am in seattle after many delays. 
and they lost my luggage, but at least I am safe at home!
what can you do?

happy holidays, my friends :)

The begining of my story is random, however it gets... more important? I don't know haha.

I was watching Tyra (latenight reruns!) while sort of studying for my psych final and noticed she was doing a special on the porn industry. Needless to say I was intrigued... hah. The women on there had fascinating views on their careers... and the way it ( Read more... )