Why is everyone staring ( Read more... )

I hate myself and I think I'm gonna cut ( Read more... )

Dear you,
I hate being around you,
You, with your tiny little body, hipbones and spine sticking out,
You, with all your frineds who love,
You, with all those guys always around you,
You, with your perfect grades,
You, with all the clothes everyine loves,
You, everyones best friend,
You, the one that fits in oh so perfectly,
And your stupid blonde hair,

But ( Read more... )

I feel so new and fresh!
I've lost weight. I feel different. I feel confidant. I actually feel confident. 
I'm starting to get out of this slump.
I'm starting to like life again.
Thank you God. Your my rock and redeemer. I love you. 

I know that no one else is comparing me to my sister but me, but i can't help it. She's so skinny. Everybody loves her. She has all these cute clothes. She's really nice. She's younique. She loves me, so it makes being jealous of her a lot harder. Gosh I just hate myself sometimes. I just want to be someone else. Or no one at all. I know I need to ( Read more... )

It seems like every  night I have at least two different dreams. This summer I've dremt about my ex so many times I can't even count. Their always different but their always about us getting back together.
So the last one I had we were just about to kiss and then I thought to myself Wait, do I really want this heartbreak again? I know this guy is ( Read more... )

Another anorexia dream

I don't really remeber what happened in the dream all I remember was that i started bleeding out my nose and mouth.
I don't even think that could happen from not eating but in the dream that's what caused it.
I woke up scared. Again. Which is stupid because I don't really think I have an eating disorder. I'm just too fat.

The ( Read more... )

Last night my mom and i got into another fight.
She said i had an attitude so I said that I was getting frusterated because she gives me no privacy, she said respect goes two ways and I said, um ya it does mom. So we got into it and she took the money back that she gave me for babysitting, which she has no right to do. She got mad at me and said ( Read more... )

I'm visiting my mom's best friend for some reason (hungry but trying to ignore it, as usual). We were talking, doing our makeup and she was brushing my hair when all of the sudden a huge clump of my hair fell out, like almost half my hair huge, and she looked at me with shocked eyes. I was horrified and scared as hell that she would find out about ( Read more... )

Dear mom ( Read more... )