More or less. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore, but obviously it can't really be right. After all, all one has to really do is take a look at Jake's mood and his latest blog entry and it would leave one thinking that perhaps the girl her married, the one, is maybe not the one. Because, obviously she can't keep him happy and in his darkest ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I just don't feel like I'm enough. Enough of a person, enough a wife, enough of anything that matters. I'm so remiss in my life and my feelings. I'm so listless in all things I do. I don't know. It's like on some days I am the most patient of people. Take for instance yesterday. Jake was putting our bed together and couldn't get a part ( Read more... )

I've been pregnant before. Right around the time Jake and I eloped. One night, we were at the lake, sitting and talking. He said something that set me off. I walked away, feeling sick and couldn't catch my breath. I collapsed onto the ground ( Read more... )

Recently I came upon something right after the election that not only made me livid but disgraced every person who lives in this country. Here, in the United States of America, ignorance runs rampant like a disease or fashion trend, and that was made blatantly obvious to my eyes something like two minutes ago. People all across the country are ( Read more... )

Lately, I've not been updating this. It isn't because I haven't had the time, because, everyone knows, that even if I do work six to seven days a week, I have the time for this. No, it's because I didn't think I had much to say, but really I do. So much to say, but I don't know who is watching or reading or forming opinions of me. I don't know. ( Read more... )

Well, as it stands, Jake and I have officially moved out and are on our own now. We're living in our new apartment in Round Rock, near  tiny creek with butterflies hovering above it. Right now, as I'm typing, I have dinner in the oven cooking and am wondering if this is how the rest of the world felt. Tucker, my black lab bloodhound, is laying by ( Read more... )

Here is how today went. I woke up when Jake's alarm went off at around six thirty this morning and drifted in and out of sleep for a while and then I went to work. It's the usual. However, things get wild when I come home ( Read more... )

I'm having a rough time right now. If you have a minute, could you just text me with some positive stuff. I'd appreciate it. Thanks.

MY cell is 970-1695

Because I could not stop for Death,
He kindly stopped for me;
The carriage held but just ourselves
And Immortality.
We slowly drove, he knew no haste,
And I had put away
My labor, and my leisure too,
For his civility.

We passed the school, where children strove
At recess, in the ring;
We passed the fields of gazing grain,
We passed the setting sun ( Read more... )

You know, a single person has two days off a fucking week and what would you think that person would like to do with them?

You know what, fuck it. I'm too god-damned pissed off to even fucking type it

FUCK

I'm going to break my god damned keyboard with how hard I'm slapping the god damned keys.