Note to Self:

Next time you try to make plans for like, a coffee date or something with someone, stop. Don't bother.
You're just going to get blown off, as per usual, and end up at home sulking, so don't even try.
At least you can pretend that if you tried someone would actually do it, instead of having to deal with the sting of rejection.

Thanks, mom, for making me feel like fucking shit.
I come up and try to help you out, and the first thing you do is fucking snap at me and bitch at me.
And you wonder why I don't like hanging out with you guys and why I stay in the basement all of the time now.

Fuck you.

It's twelve, so I'm going to bed.
If you left me a note, I didn't get it.
Goodnight. Love you.

being this fake little person, just playing a part. I'm not a friendly person, but I strike up casual conversation because it fills my day with idle chatter from people at school that I don't really care about at all. They don't care about me either; it's evident, I may situate myself with a specific group of friends during school hours, but when ( Read more... )

So I guess that just in case I don't talk to you, and it's not looking like I will, I'm working 2-close. Be home around 8:30 or something, but I'm not going to be on long 'cause I have to do the stupid get ready for school shit.
Whatever.

So. I thought today I'd finally get a fucking day off, but no ( Read more... )

Okay, so they called me into work. I'm working 7-11 in the morning, which isn't bad.
But then we're going to Aunt Joyce's house at 12. I probably won't be on in between, but I'll be on after, though I don't know how long we're going to be.. A couple hours, probably. Be home by 3 or 4, I think. I'd text you, but I have no money on my phone. :/

I'm ( Read more... )

I don't know if I can be me anymore.
Every day that passes I get sicker and sicker of myself.
And how useless I am.

I can't breathe.
Panic attack.

Fuck.
It's been so long.

"I hope you don't have kids, Kirstyn, because you'll be terrible at it."

Wow. I'm never going to grow up now.
Enjoy it.