i used to think that i was just keeping all these secrets..

but the more i think about it,
the more i understand,

that these secrets are keeping me

im realizing how many regrets i have. usually we regret the things that we do, but in this case, im regretting the things i didnt do, the things i cant do, the things im not doing. ive lost so many people in my life due to my fears; for fear of telling them how i truly feel, and for fear of losing them if i try... my fears have led me to distance ( Read more... )

and it was beautiful...

this is why im so fucked up ( Read more... )

forget the memories ( Read more... )

im done,
its over.
i cant fight this anymore.

this summer has been incredible to say the least... i havent done much just the usual parties, chills, u know whatever.. but along the way ive had some important realizations ( Read more... )

R.I.P. MRS. LAPANSEE

g0d what have i done?! im just sitting by the phone pathetically, waiting for you to call. why cant u call? please call... please. wow im fucking pathetic ( Read more... )

im twisting and turning, until finally i open my eyes. i turn, its 8:24 AM.. on a day that i can sleep in. a thin sheet is the only thing that covers me. im trembling... and muttering, muttering something strange. it takes me a while to comprehend what exactly im saying. im mutterng his name.. uh oh ( Read more... )