I'm gonna try figure myself out.
I'm gonna have to...

 I'm back to school ( Read more... )

 this is suppose to be a good thing.
I'm hurting with no tears going down my face.
my mind keeps rolling in high times.
      my medicine.
I couldn't make up my mind whether to see her before she leaves again.
  I stayed put. home hidden!

I left my studio. My privacy and came back to the originality.
Not a bad place. Another difference. Another move.
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I'm trying to keep writing.
Although, I'm loosing it just a little.
What's been interesting lately?
Oh, last night i dreamt of sex.
I'm missing it. I want it so bad. He or she, I want to be settled with one.

Ugh, i want more weed.
I want easy connection. I know more "mens" than girls so far.
and i smoke with a variety.
Sheez! where is this all ( Read more... )

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 mmmhhh, where did everyone go...

from here?

I'm beginning to love drinking..
alcohol does make you forget.
lost in the world.
and just flow.

its almost a new day in need to be awake at 3 am.
mmmhhhh so much events.
stories. learning. and realization.

i hate love.
it makes you feel.
angry.
Not healthy.
Lies tied in lies
cheat. Lust.
Its all, in fact disgusting.

Love is my nickname in birth
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Shanon I love you dearly ( Read more... )

I don't do much now days.
I sit at home, stare, zone, nothing.
I don't like being out there and I don't like being inside
I don't know where I want to be.

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