ive realized

that you can still have a broken heart

even though you've never been in love.

ive realized

that the people that you think will always be there-

wont.

ive realized

that moving on, as hard as it may seem

is how you learn to grow up.

ive realized

that no matter how many times you say that you're ok

it wont make it true.

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so all my walls have nothing on them now. my pictures are gone and my frames are down...it looks empty. like ive packed all my memories into tiny little boxes and stored them in my closet. i dont know if i like it or not. yes i sure am ready for college, to start fresh and mew, and just get away. but at the same time i wish i could fix things ( Read more... )

for the first time in a long time, i'm actually writing in this stupid thing and i'm not sad ( Read more... )

so last night, reality hit me. first off, im actually going off to college. i'm actually going to have to step out of my comfort zone, and just start completely over. i'm not even sure if i'm ready. i dont know why its only hit me now though. sure i knew i was gonna go and everything, but i dunno i think i was totally in denial that things are ( Read more... )

why hello lame journal. its me again. this year...has been packed with soo much stuff, its kind of weird knowing how i made it through all of it without all my hair falling out. being a leader at kairs, which mind you, is totally not like me because i hate public speaking...my grandpa passing away, which was supertough...my sister, rachelle getting ( Read more... )

so i rarely go on this...except for those rare moods when i just dont know how to express what on earth im feeling ( Read more... )

in yearbook once againsecond time...the first time i tried writing in this sandi & linds typed a lot...and somehow made everything on my livejournal disapear. sandi keeps coughing and rubbing all her nastiness on my sweater. ew. dirty dirty ( Read more... )

ever felt blah?

cause i do.

and i dont know why.

gosh i swear i have a lot of mood swings.

and theres no reason...or there is and its just a lot of crud.

fantastic sams.

college is a butt.

my life is a mess.

well some of it.

and im just tired of school.

i wish i wasnt me sometimes.

so i was in church today...and a whole lotta things were going on in my head ( Read more... )

hi sandi
you're sitting right next to me right now.
yes yes you are.
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buck chow

that was from you

and its buck choy.

dont pretend to be asian.
youre not.

freak.