i just read through my journal entries, and no matter what I did it seemed I could never escape damien. I have been stuck in this thing of loving him and hurting, and just waiting for him to love me back now for two years of my life. I cant do it anymore, and as much as it kills me to finally let him go, and let him out of my life..I know i have ( Read more... )

im so tired of everything. My life is shit and i wont be able to fix it now. Its like fighting and yelling at me is going to fix everything. I just feel so lost and empty ( Read more... )

Its not like im not getting over damien because I am..Its just the affects that its had on me that im not over ( Read more... )

God I love damien So much.I dont think he will ever understand how much.Im so glad hes comming home soon.I know it wont be for long and he has to go back.But i cant wait to hold him in my arms...Were gonna spend the whole day watching movies like we use to and im going to lay on his chest and hes going 2 hold me.Ill pull away just so i can feel him ( Read more... )

So im out out of the hospital since being in there since thursday and i feel so out of place.I feel like no one cares and no one has even noticed.I dont know...i just feel alone and shitty...i hate this life and i hate it here...i wanna leave so bad....i just wanna b gone...

Laura

i dont know what 2 think nemore, even with everyone changing around me i always thought i knew what love was for me anyway i always thought i had the answer....im so lost...what am i doing to myself? i mean really....i love him so much with all of my heart i would really die for him.id give my life id lose everything for him...and i believe that he ( Read more... )

ok so damien emailed me sunday which made me happy we talked and it went good.....then i went 2 his house 2day 2 help his mom i walk in and shes on the phone and she kinda looked at me so i knew who it was..and she said it was damien so i kinda just stood there....she asked if i wanted 2 talk 2 him i was like ummmm....if he wants 2...so she handed ( Read more... )

ok so ive been doing good by not emailing damien and talking 2 him...last night i went on a horrible date and i just missed damien so much.....i cried all night and forced myself not 2 write 2 him....i wanna even more now but i cant...his mom called me for the first time in a month and i went over and talked 2 her for like an hour...that felt ( Read more... )

Ok well me and damien arent talking nemore....finally.....he decided not to talk 2 me nemore because im selfish??? long story but its bullshit..and as much as i wanted 2 b the one person who never gave up on him...i couldnt help it when he wasnt ever there for me....i tryed being strong and be this strong woman that everyone expected of me...and i ( Read more... )