I'm 21 now. I'm a big girl. Adult. I'm supposed the "contribute to society". As much as I don't want to admit it, I am an adult, and I wish there was a simple way to stop dwelling on the old days, and get my head out of the fucking clouds. On the other hand, I want to do what I want, when I want. Doing that is easier say than done, however. ( Read more... )

Up....down....up.....down....damn it....I'm up again....I guess that's a good thing. I think I'm up anyways. I have to pull a 3rd shift tonight....damn it....I'll be tired ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a bit uneasy this morning, and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I know I'm not going to make shit at this new job. I'm scared about something, or unsure, uneasy, I don't know, but somethings going on in my head. My stomach is nervous. It may just be something petty, or am I about to make a bad decision. I'm so torn, that I don' ( Read more... )

There are three things I've learned about life, thus far. First of all, everything happens for a reason, and of the few things I do know about life, this is number one because I feel strongest about it. Second, I am the most paranoid person alive. There is no way everyone is this world could think like I do at the same time and have the world ( Read more... )

does a look in the mirror make you want to close your eyes and hide away forever? do you wonder what would happen if you just didn't wake up in the morning. would anybody notice? or worse, would anyone even care? i can't pinpoint exactly what it is that i'm scared of. i was going to try to quit smoking today, but it won't work for me...i need ( Read more... )

Right now, I'm sad. I slept like shit again last night. When I woke up, it was just like I was still sleeping. I have days like that. At times, I feel like I have so much going on in my head, I could spend and entire day thinking, and not say a word to anyone. I'm still not sure how reality is supposed to be. That may not make any sense, but ( Read more... )

Yesterday, as most of you may know, was April 20, a basic smoke day for stoners, such as myself. We had a rather nice afternoon. Everyone stoped by to say "high"! My Duece-Doggy came down, too, which was really cool. She brought this girl with her who, as soon as she stepped in my doorway, I recognized. At first, I couldn't pinpoint where I ( Read more... )

I'm in complete awe of what's going on. I cannot believe I am functioning without a job right now. It's killing me. I had my first interview at Bubba's a week ago, and I called today and the Lady said that she is still going through first-round interviews, and whenever she starts with her second interviews, she will call me. My roomate Ash has ( Read more... )

*cheesees***

i'll keep you posted....as of now, i know nothing but OH MY GOD does he smell good!!! YES! nervous when he is here, with me anyway, which is a good thing, i suppose.

<3 dawn

"Hey Man, Look at me Rockin' Out!"

Snap! We can't smoke in the bathroom anymore. I had to wash the walls, crazyness!! Anyways, just 3 weeks until our Roadtrip! I'm super uber excited! I cannot wait!