Since I got home from school:
I noticesed that both my parents have No on Prop 8 stickers on their car
My mother's good friend died
I saw Carmen
she told me to buy something romantic for Caitlynne
I saw a moive about India that has me a bit afaird to go to Ciro

AARON!!- I am sorry for being a duffus. forgive me. and call me some time. <3

I don't actually know what I wanna say. I just know I wanna, need to say a lot.

so I slept threw last week. I mean literally slept threw it ( Read more... )

I just watched one of my faviort moives of all time "Where the Heart is". it neither a good movie nor dose it have any particular meaning. except that I really like it and its happy (and sad). anyways, it got me thinking about love and loss and what those things mean ( Read more... )

feeling better about dating caitlynne ( Read more... )

I have spent the day watching this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89FbCPzAsRA

and doing homework.

I am not sure witch has been worse.

Rather then be productive I have been watching a documentary about other capitalist countries and their health care system. You ready to be angry and leave the the country? watch this: http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/sickaroundtheworld/

So, since the last time. when I was freaking out and being myself. (I honestly think the freaking out is part of my fucked up copeing style) I hung out with Caitlynne and Jamie and Ash and Maggie (for a bit) yesterday they all met me at VDP, where I had the FASTEST hour of work ever. then we hung out on the lawn, I bought kids book at the ( Read more... )

why do I always do this with matters of the heart? Why do I over think, rush in, start to dream? I am so full of paranoia right now I can't think clearly. and its a shame, I have so much to do ( Read more... )

so after a weekend of needless freaking out. I feel numb with freaking out. still have not heard from her (it is early) still not sure whats going one. intentions mine or hers, trying to stay possitive and enjoy the ride.
and paniced.