mmm. i'm happy.
it's wonderful I must admit.
i'm not exactly sure what is the source of my happiness.
but it's there. i'm soaking it up. this is the good life.

i'm glad i got all that duhhhprreshhunnn out of my system.
maybe change isn't always as bad as it seems.
because honestly, nothing is really changing right now.
it already had. and school just gave ( Read more... )

friendships and lovers,
hopes and dreams,
goals and effort,
feelings and life,

it's all so overrated.

it's like i hate my life. and love my life. with exactly the same amount of passion.
we're talking. extreme happiness, matched with utter depression.
bipolar much? i think yes ma'am.

i think, it may be that i am in transition.
there's my old life. here's my new life.
and i'm just sitting in the middle.
and i'm all too aware that i don't know how the new ( Read more... )

ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod ( Read more... )

my mind is racing ( Read more... )

Lately life has been odd.
Well, I have been taking in the events of life oddly.
I have been reacting to life oddly.
There, that one works.

I'm not going to continue rehashing my summer day by day.
I'm still holding a grudge to this here eljay because of the last deletion incident.
And not to mention, if you weren't a part of the memory, I don't care if ( Read more... )

OMFG YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME.

I JUST UPDATED THIS ENTIRE THING. THAT'S ALMOST TWO WEEKS OF TYPING. IT TOOK ME LIKE AN HOUR. I WAS FUCKING DONE. AND THEN MY MOUSE SPAZZED OUT AND I ACCIDENTALLY CLICKED ON "DIRECTORY SEARCH" AND IT'S GONE.

I AM SOOO MAD.

that's it, i'm going to bed.

THIS IS GOING TO BE A CHALLENGE. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I DID ANYMORE.
TIME TO RACK MY BRAIN.

PS; I AM NOT DOING THIS BECAUSE I WANT TO BE.
I DEFINITELY DO NOT FEEL LIKE IT.
BUT I PROMISED.
AND I'M DONE WITH BREAKING PROMISES.

TUESDAY. I TOLD MY DAD I WOULD BABYSIT THE BOYS. I AM SUCH A GENEROUS PERSON. I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THERE UNTIL 12. I DEFINITELY LEFT ( Read more... )

I'M SO BEHIND.
BUT NOT AS BEHIND AS KASIA.
I NEED TO UPDATE.
NOT AS BADLY AS KASIA DOES.
THIS IS SAD.
TRUE. TRUE.

i will tomorrow. promise.

SUMMER IS HEEEEEERE.
WHO IS EXCITED? ALEX IS.

THURSDAY. WAKE UP. KASIA SAYS I CAN GO TO GRADUATION WITH HER AND KIM EVEN THOUGH KIM DIDN'T LIKE IT. THANK YOU KASIA. AND THANK YOU KIM FOR PRETENDING YOU DIDN'T HATE ME BEING THERE. TALKED TO MEMBERS OF THE BAND OVER THE PHONE. CALLED THAT LORD OF THE RINGS, JURASSIC PARK, & STAR WARS. YEAH I RULE. ( Read more... )