I know I keep saying that I'm back and don't update but I really am back this time. Sorry guys. I have had a lot going on.....from going throught the divorce and major problems with him when it comes to my daughter and rying to get situated with my new boyfriend. I've been with him for a while now and he makes me so happy.....ussually....lol. ( Read more... )

Well Im back again. Alots been going on. Mainly Nick trying to take my daughter away. Yea lovely right. Anyways I dont much feel like talking right now so ill update soon

Now that I'm not addicted to myspace anymore I'm back....lol. I'll be catchin' up on everyones journal tonight. I'll do an update later. Let you guys know whats been going on. It's def been too long. Anyone wanna add me on myspace it's http://www.myspace.com/envied_illusions. ( Read more... )

I just wanted everyone to know I'm still alive and kicking. I know I've been slacking BIG time. I'm sorry. I'll catch up on everyones journal after my nap. Bye

Well, I met this guy Dave....he seems like a sweetheart so far but we all know things can change. We'll see. I do still talk to Dusty although I'm ready to tell him to leave again because I'm tired of him giving me an attitude. But I guess I don't have to worry about that cuz he's leaving me so whatever saves me the trouble. Well im off to get my ( Read more... )

Well as much as it hurts I told Dusty that I can't do this anymore. I've been crying all day, but I'll get over it. I don't know where I got the strength from. I guess after dealing with Nick it wasn't as hard as it should of been. I miss him already and I feel like I'm gonna break and just ask him to come back. I told him that I loved him and if ( Read more... )

I hate the fact that I'm not her. I hate how I'm always second best to him. I want him to be with me. I want him to be mine. I want to tell him I love him, I want him, I need him. I want him to know I mean it and to feel the same. I hate that I cry over him. I hate how I don't have the strength to fight with him. I hate that he hurts me and breaks ( Read more... )

Why the hell is it so hard to find a good man? I'm so tired of I'll call you, I'll stop by and then nothing. Am I doing something wrong? Dusty and I are still seeing eachother...which means yes I am setting myself up for disappointment. But everytime I try to talk to another guy they don't compare to him. I just wish he could be mine. I want to ( Read more... )

Well, lets see....been a couple days so where do I begin? I've been seeing this guy Dusty, but his girlfriend is in jail and when she gets home he doesn't want to be with me unless she leaves him....so tell me again why I want to be with him? We've been together everyday for 2 weeks straight and I really have feelings for him. He treats me really ( Read more... )

Well, I'm back....finally. Let's see...Nick's an ass and I wish I never had a kid with him...even though my daughter is my life...but just not to have to listen to the way he talks to me would be AMAZING. Then Jeremy...haha...fuck him. He has me pick him up from a bar where he is with some stupid ass duchebag whore. I was about to knock her fucking ( Read more... )