I am alive still, to those who may be wondering. For some reason the attempt I made on my life did not work out as planed. So I have decided that suicide is not worth the bother. I am alive and plan to stay that way for some time. Sorry to worry those who expressed concern for my well being and thank you to those who left me kind words of ( Read more... )

Well, its been a long time since I have written in this internet keeper of my record. Yeah, way too much crazy shit has happened in the inbetween posts to adequately update.  Soo yeah, yay for the outdated blog!!! Well, I got shit todo, so Ill post laterz maybe.

So I kinda managed to dissapear. The fact that I was working a 9 to 5 and my family kept dying on me was kinda convieniant. Im not sure if I am happy this way. Some things are definately less complicated. I miss certain people I have not been in contact with in a while. I hope they understand the life changes I have been going through. Hopefully I ( Read more... )

I am not sure how much longer I can live this way. I am not really deppressed per-se, just stagnant and lost. Everytime I figure out the direction I need to take, it dissapears. I think Im going to dissapear for a week or two in Feburary. I still have no job, although I am going to be talking to a conselor at macomb about getting an associates with ( Read more... )

My Survey 2007BasicallyName//:Stephen Age//:22 Birthday//:July 24th Birthplace//:Detroit Current Location//:In my room Eye Colour//:Brown Hair Colour//:Dark Brown Height//:6'2 Orientation//:Straight Scars//:A few, a big one on my side. Freckles//:Sometimes Favourite StuffColour//:Red Bands//:VNV Nation, CombiChrist,Deb Folds,Phish,Stringe Cheese ( Read more... )

    Its hard to be an optimist for others. Its hard to find ways to make even the shittiest of situations have a bright side. Its really hard to do this, when you yourself are a pessimist who would cut himself into ribbons if he hadn't worked so hard on self control ( Read more... )

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Ever wish that you just never existed? This is definitely a morbid trail of thought to wander. Unfortunately, its where my mind has been treading the last week or so. I see my life as a series of failures and disappointments and let-downs. Sometimes I lose sight of the point of being alive. Perhaps this is a ramification of helping others through ( Read more... )

so much ridiculous shit has happened recently, I don't really want to talk specifics. My parents behaving as usual, people reacting to behaviors as usual I feel like usual ( Read more... )

Every turn another twist inside the darkest heart ( Read more... )