I got me a new diary or LJ or whatever you wanna call it. I will add all of you and you must add me. i'm now

bloodshedlove

now add me bizatches....adn this new one takes off right where this one left off....with my poem. So Olivia, you have to add your note again!!!

I love you all!

Just a Dream

My hand shakes...
I cant control this...
I feel my hand clinch in anticipation of what's coming
the blade comes down...
slicing my already torn skin...
The blood appears...
the perfect shade of red...
I slowly sigh, releasing the breath I was holding...
I step into my sanctuary...
I can feel the water pelting down
hot...
freeing me...
freeing me...
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I dont know what I'm doing with myself anymore. Its been a little over a month since I cut and I've been kinda down recently and I've wanted to fuck up that month and just hack. I want to so badly but I then I dont. I mean its a MONTH since I've done it and now I just wanna throw that away just for fuckin five minutes of pain and then maybe ten of ( Read more... )

Bizatch is my new word. lol.

Well I have bronchitis. It sucks. I've had a fever for like a week. I missed yesterday of school and I tried to make it today but I just felt shitty so I called grandpa and he came and got me. I came home, burned off a CD and then went to bed. I slept for a few hours and then I got up and came down here. Michelle was ( Read more... )

Everything's so blurry, and everyone's so fake, and everyone's so empty, and everything is so messed up....

Oh how I love that song "Blurry" by Puddle of Mud, I love it. I dont know why but I have listened to it alot and it makes me feel so good....weird..but I guess that's how I've always felt about music. Ok moving on from that.

I broke up with ( Read more... )

My computer's been messed up and now it is fixed....HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY!!!! I went almost a week without talking to anyone on here. I thought I was gonna die. But I didn't.

I went a whole week or however long it was without talking to Tony. I missed him SO much surprisingly. Michelle, being the WONDERFUL friend she is, got on my messenger and ( Read more... )

Yeah so its Valentines Day mine actually hasn't been bad at all. I got (fake) flowers from Mrs. Tolson(since I'm in Forensics) and Jennifer and I got a goodie bag from Mrs. Harper and Kelsey Shiflett gave me a sucker...that was lips...god it was strawberries n creme...YUMMY! Anyway. I sent a flower to Jennifer, Kelsey S. and R. and thats all I did ( Read more... )

Well, this is written so I dont get deleted from Ollie's friend list. lol.

Let's see, me and tony are still together....barely. We've been fighting a lot and I dont know what to do. I care about him a lot but I dont know what to do about us. Today has been the first day since we've been dating that he hasn't been on to talk to me and I'm pissed. We ( Read more... )

Yeah, I think I may be crazy. Let me tell you why.

There is this guy named Tony who lives in Alabama who I've been talking to for like 3 years on the net. Well last night he asked me out and I said yes. I swore that I would never get involved in an internet relationship again, but I have. I feel like I know him and he is really sweet to me and ( Read more... )

I went and saw Matt in The Diviners. He was AMAZMING! I was really proud of him. lol. Matt you are so fucking talented it isn't even funny. I loved Basil's walk! It was funnier than hell!!! I loved you in the play. GOOD JOB!

The whole play was amazing. Jacob(Olivia's ex) played a retarded kid that just made you love him. He referred to himself as " ( Read more... )