I'm sure that the heart I left behind
still lies hidden in the heart of the deep, deep forest.

Exhausted, without the strength to search
people vanish into the infinite darkness.

If it's so small, I wonder if I can see it even now?

As we live on,
we lose a little bit more.
Shrouded in falsehoods and lies,
we stand frozen to the spot, unable to cry out ( Read more... )

Well I found two of my sisters on myspace. Mindy and Melissa. I added both but so far only Mindy has added me. I don't know exactly how to deal with it. I don't know how I should talk with her. I left her message, but she didn't respond. So I'm waiting for that.  I hope its something good ( Read more... )

Faded Pictures

Time passes like a river to the sea
No one can control its path or stop it from flowing
Time carries us like driftwood on a wave
Floating on a river of time our days fade behind us
Only to be remembered in our memory and pictures
Pictures put away for many years in boxes and drawers
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Alright I decided not to delete this journal because that would mean SHE won and I left something that means something to me. So this journal is going no where. Although its content will change.

Those of you who have my other journal, if you really want to know what's going on with me, Read that one. This is just the bullshit journal now.

So little miss victim has placed a post up. Yep we're the bad people! We are horrible! We have made you leave a journal you have had for a whole five years. WOW.

Play it up a little more and oh please forget to tell them what you did to put you in the situition as well. Make it seem like you've done nothing wrong. Sorry sweetheart the world doesn't ( Read more... )

I know I have said this before kids, but this is the last entry to this journal. I have another one step up, only the people I see fit will be getting it. Sorry to those that don't. But this is hard enough on me....a lot has changed and I just can't let some people see how I truly feel because they will use it against me.

So, I see no reason why I ( Read more... )

So...sadly as some of you may know, Chris Benoit died yestrday afternoon in his home in Altanta Georgia along with his wife and son. Its a very sad lose for me personally because I really admired Chris for her passion, his drive, his deterimation. I've cried more then once tonight because of his death. It was hard to watch the tribute because I ( Read more... )

Since when do you owe someone your life? Apparently at this point I owe Sean my life. What total utter bullshit. I don't owe him a fucking thing. I'm sorry but if you're an asshole to me on a regular bases, jam your knee into my back while you're sleeping and when you're told about it the next morning, say you are not accountable for it then there ( Read more... )

So thursday I'm driving all the way to Alex Bay in search of a job and an apartment. Don't ask long story. I'm probably going to be stopping at places I see on the way too that look like they are hiring or even if they aren't get an application and fill it out anyway ( Read more... )

So I stopped at my Gram's place today and borrowed three bucks to get gas in the car so it wouldn't die in the middle of the street and I picked up the pic of me and Steve ( Read more... )