I don't want to be the person who is always angry for no reason. Lately, this is who I am. I don't want to burden anyone.. anyone I hold fondly in my mind, my friends, my anything.. with what seems to be a constant bitterness. I really don't know where to turn anymore. I just know this is not me, this was never me, this cannot be who I turn out ( Read more... )

I read this today in the newspaper and wanted to share it ( Read more... )

The walls start to reappear and the shadows start to bleed with the lighted areas in my mind. I don't understand what throws the walls up. Perhaps you're right. Perhaps I am unbalanced. It's like when you're down at a river and you find those smooth, round rocks that are just perfect for skipping across the water. You bend down and pick it up ( Read more... )

I love how Buttons curls up on my shoulder and falls asleep, purring in my ear..

I met my uncle for the first time a few years ago. I should say I met him again. I was only three when my dad was transfered to this God forsaken place and though I do remember a lot of my mom's family, they are strangers to me ( Read more... )

So, fallenangel_79, your LiveJournal reveals...


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( The Everything Test )

So, it seems like a lifetime since I actually had a real update and I think it's time I hashed out what's been plaguing me.  I don't really know where to start.   I don't want this to be a whiny update or one that's filled with bitching but already it's heading there.

I've never been one to hold in a lot of anger at once nor for a lengthy amount ( Read more... )

Would I be any happier as someone else?

If memories are what keeps us together, the part of separation is widening our distance for I have forgotten the sound of your voice.  The realization of this hit me hard last night.  For the first time since your passing, I cannot remember what you sound like.  This scares me as my mind darts from one side of my memory to the other, what will I ( Read more... )