anyways... today Amber and i got our driver permits.. yay go team i thik (im so enthusiastic!... not) now that we finally passed i can throw out that dhorrid book. my mom is taking us bowling tonight, oh joy! that'll be fun, untill somebody (most likely me) gets angry at someone else (most likely amber or kevin or emily or my mom or partic, if he ( Read more... )

OH GOD!!! it feels soooo good! last night my cousin came to visit and kevin, ambers boyfriend slept over. they were all in my room and being dumb butts. they were constantly talking about stupid stuff. i couldnt take it anymore, it was either blow up in thier faces or go somewhere to be alone. i took my razor and rubbing alcohol (does anyone else ( Read more... )

BLOOP! lol! anyways... IM SO BORED!!!!!! i just got back from the dentist, OH JOY!!! lol jk! OMG! i finally saw "The Lost Boys" yesterday for the first time and LOVED it! it was so awesome. i also saw an anime series called Amitage. :) loved that too! darn! my cousin is coming is coming to visit soon, its not like i dont like her, i do, it's just ( Read more... )

im tired because i just woke up from a 9 hour sleep, but it didnt feel that long. damn night... goes by to quickly!!! I wish it would stay night time all the time. oh well! lol you're prbably tired of hearing it bynow but oh well! that would be your problem not mine!if youre so tired of hearing it then stop reading this. (srry if im bitchy, im not ( Read more... )

im so bored... there is nothing to do!!! Darn kitties are knocking everything over. grrr... anyways... i reads Ambers and Kevins journal entries and WOO!!! i feel even more unloved and unwanted. (after i am done typing i think i will go cut myself some more) ya know if i was invisible i would probably be even more forgotten about (sorry if it ( Read more... )

i told everyone that i stopped cutting but i didn't. i cant stop... it just feels to good. at the same time it is soothing yet terrifying. i wish there was some one to talk to but there isn't. im all alone... amber and kevin are so lucky. they have each other. i watch them closely, i know they see me most of te time but when they cant... its like ( Read more... )

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~Picture~

I'm going to draw a picture
A picture with a twist
I'll draw it with a razorblade
I'll draw it on my wrist
As I draw the picture
A fountain will appear
As the fountain flows
My troubles dissapear

( i started cutting myself a couple of days ago and stopped after seeing how it hurt my sister. I love you Amber! thanks for being there!)

Hey, all! this is my journal~ yay (you probably already knew that though!) anyways.... so yeah, nothing important going on right now. i am about to sit down and eat cut up pig and chicken babies that didnt even have a chance to live! lol! now i am being summond to set the table! Ciao! (till my next lame entry)