Thinking about life...I guess the overall thing I really want is just to experience as much as I can. I don't ever want to feel as if I'm regressing. I always want to be doing something worthwhile and productive. Right now, at this moment- I feel that I will eventually be moving out of state and the thing I'm looking forward to most about that is ( Read more... )

Given the chance to do again...I'm not sure I would have chosen to graduate early. I'm finding this whole search for a job process to be daunting and I'm barely even started yet. I made it to round three of interviews for Millward Brown and granted, it would have been extremely odd to land the first thing I applied for...but going through an ( Read more... )

So for my theater class we have to read plays and analyze them through these dramatic structure worksheets. And we've gone through some weird plays like House of Yes but despite the fact that that specific play featured characters off their rocker and living in a sick reality of normalcy; it is more appealing and satisfying for me to read than a ( Read more... )

Just tonight I realized how  much happier I truly am this semester. Breathing was something I always seemed to take for granted until I lost the ability to breathe and think clearly at the same time. Everything changed and it wasn't enough to have air enough to keep up...I was barely keeping up. At some point last semester I must have been out to ( Read more... )

I love reading blogs,  people have so many interesting ideas. I think it goes along with my obsession with books lately, the whole world connection thing I keep thinking about. I can't help it. I'm drawn to something about delving into an idea shared by so many people and turning it over until it is completely understood. This is why I feel that I ( Read more... )

the thing i love about books are the places they take you. When you get really into them, you can slip away for hours, and feel something completely different than how you feel in real life. Books slow you down, they make you think and appreciate life and people. When you meet people in books, they're irregular because you know them. In less than ( Read more... )

it's like everybody was wishing and i oversaw
and i knew exactly what they were wishing for
we're not that different but you'd think we are

if you look around (and you don't have to look too far) you can always find someone who is less prepared than you are, not as smart, not as successful, not as experienced..who makes you feel pretty damn good about yourself, almost to the point of settling right here and right now. You will always be a step ahead of these people and they will always ( Read more... )

back in senior year- i felt so alive and connected with how i feel. now it's just not there- i go through my days but i don't feel the way i used to feel. it makes me feel like i have lost the "youth" and "clarity" of being young and i dont know where its gone. it can't be that ive grown too old to feel it because I'm only 21. life hasn't worn on ( Read more... )

 i just dont fucking know what to do about you and i hate it