i now have "access to the internet" whenever!!!! i am the proud owner of a computer and i am super excited about it.work was boring, got to see misti!! made my day, i miss her so much. she told me something that made me so angry!!! but there is nothing i can do about it.i havent seen dead like me for 2 weeks, that damn huff show took over.ahh it is ( Read more... )

Ben, aka addisons brother, will be playing at bean street this sat, the 13, at 8 oclock. so be there or be square!!

well my psycho lady thinks i obsessive compulsive disorder, but no the repeating things physically kind, you can be ocd in other ways too, i constantly talk to myslef in my head and worry over things, she said that is obsessive, and thats why i have had so much trouble, bc all my time is spent worrying and obsessing. also she thinks i have sleep ( Read more... )

i had to reinstall aol and my name is now fallenwillow47. well report card = bad. myt knee gave out yest. and it hurts like a mother fucker! keyboard= fun. phone now works correctly! job= fun and more hrs. been happier lately. going to the rapist next week. going to get "psychological testing" next week too. kinda scared, i mean i have no idea what ( Read more... )

well i feel like i am moving ( Read more... )

well in response to tina... i dont kno what to say to u. i have pretty much said my shit, i think its dumb, blah blah blah, i feel i am not as important to you as leah and pamela nad everyone else, but no big deal ill get over it and so will you , i just dont kno if it will resolve us and well become friends again, i can tell u dont want to bc of ( Read more... )

it has been a lil bit since my last post, i have been kinda busy, i have been working and crap. not really any social things going on since everyone is mad at me. i was gonna go to saras party tonight but i had to work and i had no way over there. i really like my friends at work, they seem so much more mature then my other friends, like the ( Read more... )

i guess i need to do some stuff. i want people to like me, but also to help me. i dont think i can do this on my own. i am gonna try therapy...again. and i am gonna try to do more, instead a being lazy. i still have laid off soft drinks, a small accomplishment but to me it is a big deal bc i have no willpower. i am gonna do well at work and try to ( Read more... )

i told jessica's siter off !!!i started to talk to jessica and she said it was her sister so i told her to leave katie alone and this convo began ( Read more... )

all io do is wonder why ali hates me, why i was discarded like a unwanted animal. i feel so alona and afraid. if i have no friends there are less things to keep me here. but i have a job i will diverting my attention to. i guess life can always get worse ( Read more... )