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Another one for BTF
It's been a year now since the last time we were on good terms, the last time we truly even talked. And although, I am at peace with it and my mistakes. I still and will always think of you, for you are one of the many reasons I am who I am. I will always wish that I wasn't such a weight on your life, instead that I were wing and propelled you to ( Read more... ) -
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For the first time in a long time I was hurt today. It wasn’t anything major, but it just felt like rejection and that heavy feeling hasn’t left my chest.
I know I am a reckless love. I will do anything and try everything to be with the person I care about. And yes, it can be a bad thing, because my decisions become questionable although my ( Read more... ) -
To BTF
So I went looking for trouble and found it. I don’t think I will ever completely forgive myself for how I treated her. She just loved me, and I broke her. Not once, but several times. The memories of it all at times play in my mind. I try to figure out what I was thinking, why did I just keep hurting. What the hell was wrong with me. But I know ( Read more... ) -
My Polish Girl
There's a future out there that I want consisting of you and me.
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Rotary Speech I was going to give
I just want to start off by saying it is a great honor and priviledge to be accepted as a member to this amazing club and it's group of people. As I have attended the meetings for the past couple of months, I have watched and listened to you all, and the one quality that has shown above everything else- is the amount of joy this club has brought to ( Read more... ) -
Happy- Always Read This First
So I spent some time reading all my entries and realized that under my memories I had nothing labeled happy and that was pretty upsetting because I know that I have had plenty of happy moments in my life. Yet for some reason I have chosen not to write them down. I remember when Briana said that she only wrote in her lj when she was upset or sad ( Read more... ) -
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This is the most unstable my life has even been. Up until this point everything has been pretty much a straight line, and it is scary not knowing how long or where everything will take me, but I know the outcome I want and I am willing to fight till the end until I get it ( Read more... ) -
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Expression through letters
I read heard once, that the outcome of any relationship is left entirely in the hands of one person. And that person is you.
I agreed with the statement and realized that a lot of my relationship and friendships had been of that nature. And at first it bugged me, but then realized it didn’t matter too much, because in the ( Read more... ) -
having faith..
Hello old friend,
I have good updates and I have bad updates..
I'm living in a new apt with an awesome roommate. Lainey is the shit, wicked funny, goofy, and chill. We get along really, really well.
Bad news, emotions are creeping up again. I liked the one chick, as in I really liked her. And she just passed me off like nothing. Worst part is I ( Read more... ) -
Where did all my friends go..
I don't believe I'm alone. Honestly. I know I have people who care about me, and can call in dire times, but when I look around... I don't see anyone around. It's seems to always be just me. And I know it's my fault, I am responsible for where I am in my life and who is in it. I just wish I could change it a bit faster. That I'd have people all ( Read more... )