hey. john cant believe i have one of these and also a written journal. oh swell. a girls gotta vent. things are ok. i just hate how they change so much. even patty was saying yday that she misses the way things used to be. i do too. i miss the group and the laughter and the security in that. i saw mags last wk and i think i will go see patty ( Read more... )

hola, como estas? estoy frustrada. mi amigo nunca esta alegre... lo que hago.. nunca esta bueno para el. lo que sea. a veces quiero que cosas sean normales... es imposible yo se, pero es un sueno en mi corazon. otros dias necesito amor. amor.... no he sentido amor romantico o unconditioncal (sin my familia) en anos y anos... ahhh este chico me ( Read more... )

morning! i still have to wake up john for theatre soon. i am tired again. i slept for 7 hrs. i guess thats ok. the last 2 nites i just feel very broken. i look around at all my friends and everyone seems whole. they all seem as if theyre not missing much in their life, and so many times i feel like i am. thats pretty sad i suppose. jason and i are ( Read more... )

hey.... i'm back at school again. fun times. i was pretty sick mon and tues.. need 2 get that checked out sometime soon i guess. easter was wonderful. love having the fam around. we had a very busy weekend... movies, zoo, mall, etc, etc. sammy and i hung out a lot doing her hair, makeup and playing outside. i luv her. shes a doll. i took paty ( Read more... )

i dunno if that subject has ever been used b4, bc i tend 2 feel like this a lot. i am talking to dom now! he is in japan, and he is going to propose to his gf when he comes back. maybe patty and i will see him when he comes home at christmas time. hes always a good person to talk to. he can hear out all my crappy guy stories ihave 2 share, bc u ( Read more... )

i really should not be online, but here i am. i need 2 finish, well start, my dad's bday gift. his bday is 2morrow, so yay for that. mommy and i went tambourine shopping 2day.... that was fun =) we need a good tambourine 2 give judy!:) oh, dad and i started watching another silly show "the bachelor" 25 girls there, and this guy gets 2 ask one ( Read more... )

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hola! i have a huge phonetics midterm on thurs, but i guess i always find some way to procrastinate. i need to do really well on this! we just came back from watching a vball game. jenny, marc, john, and amy were playing, so floyd, anne, elizabeth, and i went. they played jaime's team, too, and it was good game to watch. i sorta miss vball-- ( Read more... )

hello.. i never ever write in here. i think it is sorta silly, but i def dont admit a lot of stuff in my real journal so this is sorta a diff outlet. things are all odd again. i dunno how this happens. everytime i get myself back under control, i kinda start to falter again i was so thrilled it was sunday and time 4 church again=) i think if ( Read more... )

hey! i 4got i had this, and i probably should have used it with everything going. i would post this on my profile, but i would scare a lot of ppl. my mind is not usually a normal thing. lets see... gosh-- when iwas writing this b4, i was worried about going away 2 school and my old friends. now most of them dont exist and i LOVE school. my ( Read more... )