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[fallinginswirls]

Argh.. I don't even know where to fucking start. I'm so fucking sick of this complete, utter social isolation; I am sixteen years old and apparently I am supposed to be enjoying my youth, going out, mixing with others, partying, taking drugs, acting like a moron etc etc (the last two are in no way synonymous, before I sound like someone off a D.A.R

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[anonymous]

If you come to see me and people won't serve us, we can just go home and drink/talk there.

[anonymous]

As I read this I was surprised to see how much you can open up the whole world when you want to. Much of it I've known, but there are several things that I saw that I would've thought you'd have told me but didn't. I'd suggest again as I always do that you aren't going to feel better in any meaningful way by looking outside yourself for solutions. Cocaine and heroine won't make you feel any better, and I'd wager they might well make you feel rather worthless. You want to make friends, but people can tell when you aren't comfortable with yourself. That isn't to say that this means they don't like you, but it can mean that they don't want to get involved in something they don't understand. If you are open to people about who you are and explain to them your difficulty with forming relationships off the net they'll be a lot more likely to want to get to know you and I'd suggest that you would be more comfortable with them. It is hard to be comfortable around people when you fear that if they get to know you they will like you less rather

[azuregos]

Getting pissy with the people who do try and care won't help either. You get in a shit because I go, you get in a shit because I won't leave you alone. Yes your life is difficult, I'm in the fucking same boat, so make up your mind, please.

[celebrodiel]

I could come to Clevedon if you wanted. I just never felt that we'd have anything to talk about (and I was never one of the people you'd want to talk to at school), but it would be good to see you. Seriously though, it's a simple bus-trip for me, and we could sit on the beach and pretend to be normal. I'm free until the 8th June so...let me know if you're interested.

I'm now going into a mixed state school (which means as many people a year as there were in my entire previous school)
Not sure if this is present or future tense. Which school? The size thing is good, even if it seems daunting at first, and it means that you are far more likely to find like-minded people who don't have a second home in America and three ponies.

Drugs like cocaine and heroin won't help you. Don't just do it because you'll do anything, because you'll eventually end up with nothing at all. However alone and useless you feel, there are people who don't feel that way about you, if only you would realise that they are there

[fallinginswirls]

"even if it seems daunting at first, and it means that you are far more likely to find like-minded people who don't have a second home in America and three ponies."

Emily Davies, much?

[thelabrodor]

I'm going to second everything Claire said, except it is not a simple bus trip for me- but I will still do it. I am unfortunatly not free over study leave, and little after, but if I can ever come I happily will.