I AM SO IN LOVE WITH MUSIC RIGHT NOW.

i hate that i still paint my nails black even though i know they will chip & i will end up looking like a mischievous kid who can't stop playing with sharpies. tonight is the first real rain of boston & i feel like going out and spinning around in circles, tangling my hair, smudging my eyeliner, and making out. nineteen is already so intriguing.

i'm so bad for anyone who wants stability in their life. i should come with a warning label: messy, eager, curious, quick to laugh, quicker to cry, wears too much eyeliner, a bit on the skinny side, self-conscious. eyes serious and somewhat distracted, too into discovery & finding meaning & studying characters of the people around her for her own ( Read more... )

i'm young & i'm underpaid ( Read more... )

lalalalalaalalalaaa bostonnnnnnnnn. 3 weeks. GAH.

uhh interesting things:

1. long-distance cousins are awesome, everyone should rediscover theirs every two years or so. more if they have lots of money to travel.

2. i finished The Awakening, 1984, The Age of Innocence, The Sixteen Pleasures & The Five People You Meet In Heaven this week. my ( Read more... )

august already-- how did that happen again? this summer has been going by so fast & at the same time it's not moving fast enough. i got the letter two days ago from financial aid. looks like i am going back to boston university after all. i cannot even explain to you how much of my summer has been spent stressing about it. getting the letter was ( Read more... )

sometimes i think a broken spirit is so much worse than a broken heart. i am so scared of what will happen in september. all i think about lately is september. i am so tired of fighting for this life. i'm just so tired. be careful with each other. we are all so fragile.

my life is in complete disarray when out of the chaos comes a reconciliation with Jeremy based on the recognition that heartbreak has no easy outclause and that sometimes finding the strength to leave someone you know is not right for you is the bravest thing a person can do. not because it's flawless, or perfect, or spares a person's feelings, ( Read more... )

went to bristol on the 3rd to watch the fireworks on the boat 
with some of the west bay-ers. 
left my hair curly, got a few too many bug bites, 
leaned a little further over the edge then i should've, 
called my dad etc. typical. 
i met a sailor named Chris at a party 
at one of Kate's friends from BC's house in Marion, Mass. 
he was handsome, charming ( Read more... )

anti-social still. sorry. i promise i am actually alive i just haven't been doin the vampire thing lately. only seen during the daytime. working, frequenting thayer with kate & al (much to the dismay of my bank account) & at the beach with bethany working on our tans. which is still made up of slightly too many freckles. ran into half of cranston ( Read more... )