as much as i want to get all of my emotions out, i want to do it eloquently. but if i do that i think too hard on trying to be articulate, rather than just being honest and open with myself. im very tired. living on my own is somewhat difficult. i worry a little more on bills, keeping up after myself, and i also have another human being to care for ( Read more... )

I'm feeling so hopeless/helpless right now. I haven't been this depressed in a long time..

Gene keeps slamming the front door and it's making me nervous. I wish he wasn't so angry all of the time, especially because there is no reason for his behavior. I can't decide if I want to stay here or move to Fresno, CA. I just want out so badly, i'm so close to being 18 I can fucking taste it. 5 months, 5 months, 5 months, 5 months, 5 months, 5 ( Read more... )

when I suddenly realized I was always living in what I was afraid I was missing out on.

I have been really thinking about old memories lately. I really really miss driving around with Jill and blaring her rap music and smoking weed and not really giving a shit about anything. I don't even like rap music but she made me enjoy it. I really miss getting drunk and random peoples houses with her and RJ "when he wasn't an asshole" and just ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in a few months, not that it matters, nobody uses lj anymore so no one reads but I like to get my thoughts out anyways ( Read more... )

well, this summer is gonna SUCK.

I'm sober
I'm going to have a job soon
I'm getting a new septum ring
and my best buddy is coming back on the 24th,
I kind of like life right now, well atleast for right now
And I really think I want to go back to CDO
but lets not push it

Truth ( Read more... )

I am real sick, I have congestion? (sp), and a fever, and a chapt nose, its pretty cute ( Read more... )