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It's been a week already, on my TDY. The work is repetitive yet deeply satisfying. The city has a dusty warm scent that comforts me to my bones. The people here are quietly polite, they speak to you with an intimacy when prompted that makes me feel at home where ever I go. When I desire solitude, they seem to sense it and welcome me with a ( Read more... ) -
Temporary Loss of Connection
I'm going on a TDY to make some monies! Since I sold my laptop a while back, I most likely will not have much internet access. I will have FB on my phone, and email, but that's about it. It's cool, though. I'm going to bring all of my knitting material (I'll have to buy some more yarn, though. I'm getting low. I've got the knitting book my ( Read more... ) -
Agruing with the wall
My relationship is normal, after all. I was wondering when my husband and I would actually have a serious argument. Today was the day for that. We opened in a restaurant, no yelling but emotions ran high. We made our waitress feel rather awkward because I was crying as she dropped of the check. We continued in the car, and I had to stop ( Read more... ) -
Go to work on a monday?! NOOOOOO!
I have had the last three Mondays off of work. The first, I used my certificate for Physical Training Excellence. When you get above 90/100 points on your PT Test, you get this certificate saying how you rock and you can redeem it for a day off of work, so I used it. The following Sunday, I came into work to help the Unit Deployment Managers do ( Read more... ) -
A continuing quest to find bits of myself
It ebbs and flows but is always there, that nagging need to find her. The need to search, but the fear of what I will find. Maybe she's dead. Maybe she's a shell of her former self. Maybe... I think I am just not at the right moment, yet. I have a mission that begins when I get home. I will follow the leads that I have, I will not only ( Read more... ) -
Death of One Particular Sibling
Apparently death of Lottie is on my mind? I took a nap earlier today because I was feeling rather ill, with a headache, dizziness, and nausea. I dreamt that I was sailing at sea with my long decease Grandfather and my sister on a small sailboat. We were quite a way into the ocean and I couldn't see land anywhere. For some reason I had climbed ( Read more... ) -
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I had been pretty much hibernating all winter, not doing much more than necessary physically. I worked out yesterday morning to welcome the warm weather and get my muscles moving, and I am very sore. I slept horribly, and when I came home during lunch to nap Lucifer was just not having that! He kept pouncing on my face, scratching the carpet ( Read more... ) -
Perfect Weather
Today is one of those rare days where just the weather seems to bring me back to another time in my life, a more care-free time. I close my eyes and I can feel the grass under me, smell the sweet dirt, hear the babble of the creek, feel the sun beating down on my body. Everything is fresh, quiet, and pure. I'm half-asleep, lounging like a feline ( Read more... ) -
Rather Vivid
The night before last, I had a rather vivid dream. I hadn't had one like that in a while, and it was rather nice. The actual dream, though was a little fucked up lol ( Read more... ) -
Imagery
I have this picture in my mind. I am changing to match it. Not much will change fundamentally, just my outward appearance. This is the change I have been striving for for a long time, but never had the patience or time to do it, or something would happen in my mind that made me feel I needed to backtrack. But soon, I will have no constraints. ( Read more... )